Ocean Breeze (bxb)-On Hold

0.3 - live a little 1/2

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle.
But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

- Marilyn Monroe

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SPENCER

We had finally made it to our destination and Nathan was getting all his stuff together.

The place Nathan had parked was right in front of a three-story mansion...Like umm what.

"Nathan what-how- where are we?" I stuttered out, how the hell does he know someone this rich.

"Well the reason for that is I do surfing, so I know people, tiger. I know people from all around the world" I made an 'ohh' sound in understanding as I get him.

Nathan and I got out of the car and he pushed me into the house, "Roxy I'm here and I brought a friend" Nathan shouted throughout the house. Not too sure why, but when Nathan said 'friend' it gave me a big kick in the stomach.

A female came running down the stairs, she had long blonde hair and a dress that was red, the dress was long and fitted with a trail, there was like lines of material going up through the boobs, so there was a lot of cleavages. If I was any straight boy I would have been so turned on. She also had a full face of makeup more like two full faces, 10 billion pieces of jewellery and some red high heels to go with the dress.

As soon as she got to the bottom of the stairs, she jumped on Nathan "oh my god I've missed you so much. How long has it been?"

"I don't know, like a year or so, not too sure"

"Yeah it's been ages"

After like 2 minutes of them hugging Roxy - I think that was her name - had finally got off of Nathan. I was looking at the floor because I was a bit jealous, only a bit though.

"Right so are we gonna set up this party or what?"

I was in complete and utter shock parties, I don't do well with parties.

"No, not going to happen, Nathan, why the hell didn't you tell me we were going to a party!" I exclaim

"Sorry Spenc, I didn't know that you didn't like parties," he said to me in a sad yet almost Vulnerable tone. That didn't stop me from saying what I did.

"Clearly!"

With that, I run out of the house and slam the door shut.

'I need to find a hiding place'

'I need to calm down before I do something I regret later'

'It's not going to happen, not again, never again'

'I just managed to work my self out of all my old habits I don't want to go back, not because of Nathan and his stupid actions, and his stupid word'

Those were all the thought running through my head at that time, all at once, they wouldn't stop it was so frustrating.

*Flashback*

I had just turned 7, my dad was out on a business trip and wouldn't be back for weeks. So that means I was left with my horrible mother, she didn't help with anything, nothing at all, even when I was being bullied.

The only one that would actually help was my dad, but like I said he wasn't here.

Currently, I am sat on my bedroom floor writing all my thoughts and emotions into a notebook.