Fuck You - Reed900

Nightmare

     Gavin's POV

Blood.....Blood everywhere, blood on me...blood on James...blood on the Android.... I'm holding James in my arms, with James bleeding out. "Stay with me...please...I need you..." I cried out. "I'm sorry Gavin...I can't fight it any longer..." He said. I look up and find the Android gone, with just a gun on the floor. There were shoe prints of blood trailing towards the door.

I look back down to see my younger brother, dead in my arms. "James..? James!! JAAMMEESS!!!"

I wake up, crying, sitting up straight, my alarm beeping it's annoying rythum. Ugh, the same nightmare...why am I still having that dream..? I was 19 when James had been murdered. It's been 17 years since his death, why do I still have nightmares about him dying?

I get out of bed and I forgot to feed Amber last night so she was meowing very loudly in the kitchen. God, her meows were annoying. I would throw her out if she wasn't James's cat. I go to the kitchen and feed her food and water so she'd shut up. After that I go to the bathroom and shower. After 30 minutes, I get out, get dressed into all black, brush my teeth and do a light shave so I have that long peach fuzz. I go out of the room and go to the living room and put on my socks and my worn down black boots. They looked mostly grey from being worn too much. I go to the kitchen again and get a beer and grab my keys off the counter and head for the door. 

I grab my black leather jacket, turn the lights off. I open the door, lock it from the inside, and shut it. I go to my motorcycle and start it. I exit my driveway and drive downtown to the police station. When I get there, I head straight to the break room and talk to Tina.

"Yoo, Gav, new record! You came 2 hours late! Big improvement, why the rush?"

"Oh you know, I only grabbed one beer this time.." I said, unconvincingly.

"It's the nightmares again huh Gav..?"

I nodded. "You have to let go Gavin. Or else it's gonna haunt you forever. It's been 17 years now Gav, you can't hold onto the past, but reach for the future."

Tina was great with advice, she was the only person I told about my dead brother, and my sexuality...and basically all my other secrets nobody knew about me.

I sighed and nodded my head. "I know but it's hard, maybe I could go to the bar and get black out drunk, I never seem to have the nightmares when I do."

Tina rolled her eyes at me. "What?" I asked. She glared at me like she knew I was lying. "Gavin, that's the reason for the nightmares. Every time you get drunk, you get the worse nightmares. You have to stop drinking, maybe then the nightmares would go away" I grabbed a donut and put it in my mouth.

"Hm hm hm hm hm" I muffled the words while eating the donut, backing into the main precinct. I heard and saw her chuckle and shake her head. I turned around to see Conner standing there, I bumped into him, falling to the ground.

"Hey watch it Tincan!" I yelled out and looked up at him. He was...taller? Wait.. that's not Conner! That's some Android that looks like Conner. It held out it's hand, signalling that it was trying to help me up. I scoffed and pushed it's hand away with the back of mine and got up. "I don't need your fucking help toaster." I bumped into it's shoulder while walking past it.

632 words, I could do better but I hope it's okay. Btw this story may have smut in it. UwU. Here's more info on Gavin.

Gavin Reed:

Born: October 7, 2002
Age: 36
Height: 5'9 ft
Weight: 176 lbs
Eye Color: Grey
Hair Color: Brown
Sexuality: Gay(In this story of course)
Status: Alive
Dating Status: Single