Salvation (Depressed Hinata fanfic)

Chapter 6

I got lost in the stars

   Hinata's pov

"I killed Shouma." I said looking down. I don't want to see their expressions. I know they look terrified.
"Wh...What do you mean? Asked mom with a trembling voice.
"That day... He didn't fall from the bridge on his own. I wanted his ice cream so I pushed him. That's why father hit only me. Because I am the one who ruined this family. I don't deserve forgiveness, but I am sorry. I am sorry that, because of me, you went through all that misfortune. I am very happy that both of you found happiness. I hope your life will get better, better than now. I hope that you will forgive my father with the time because it is my fault. I deserve this punishment. Maybe we will talk again in the future. Now excuse me." I said slowly as I grabbed my things and left their house. I started running. Even thou my wounds were bleeding again and I felt dizzy, I didn't stop. I need to run. I need to leave them, so they can be happy. I felt tears running down my cheeks. They were happy. My sacrifice, if I can say that, was worth something. I am glad I could do something useful with my shitty life. I felt my lungs hurt so I stopped. Breathing hardly, I looked at the sky. The stars were shining so beautifully like the were pitying me. I wish I was a star. I wish I could bring light to people's lives. I looked around me. I have no fucking idea where I am. Great. Now what? I am hurt and lost. You are amazing, Hinata!
  I saw close to me an abandoned building, so I headed towards it. I put my bag next to the wall and I slowly sat on the ground, closing my eyes and trying to forget about everything. First time in a while that I could spend time without worrying about something or being distra...
"Hinata?" I flinched. Awesome. I can't even rest. I opened my eyes, only to see Daichi. Well, it could have been worse.
"Yes?" I asked, trying to look confused. Damn it.
"What are you doing there? It is the middle of the night and your house is on the opposite side of the city.
Wow. I ran quite a lot. Wait, where the fuck was Shou's house? Well, doesn't matter anymore. They hate me anyway.
"Heh. I got distracted by the sky and got lost. When I observed, I was already lost and my battery is dead. Wait, do I even have my phone?" I said looking clumsily around me.
"Hinata, drop the act please." He said seriously. I felt my smile fade. Daichi got next to me and grabbed my arm. I hissed. It hurts.
"Sorry. Let's go." He let me go and waited for me to get up.
Obediently, I grabbed my bag and walked next to him. The silence was heavy. I didn't feel calm at all. I sensed his worry and curiosity as we walked. We stopped in front of a small house. His house. Suddenly, I thought sleeping on a bench was better than his house. No one would think this but in my circumstances, I bet I am right. We stepped inside.
"Sorry for the intrusion. And thanks for having me stay over." I said quietly.
"Don't mind. I am home alone today." He said as he lead me to the living room.
I slowly sat on the couch. He sat in front of me in a chair. It will be a long night.
"So, why we're you sleeping outside?" He asked directly.
"I already told you, captain. I got lost." I tried to convince him.
"I want the truth. You don't fool me anymore." He said looking at me in the eyes.
"Well... I kinda didn't want to go home." I said quietly. He heard me.
"Why?"
"Just wanted to take a walk. And I got lost in the stars."
"You look like you ran." Shit, I forgot.
"I ran a little. It is better to look at the stars this way." Daichi stared at me like he saw a lost cause in front of him. It was right thou.
"That won't do it. Suga!" He shouted. I looked at him confused. Our vice-captain appeared from the first floor. Wait...
"Are you two a couple?" I asked truly curious.
"Yes, we are." Answered Suga. "What are you doing here, Hinata?" He said.
"I saw him sleeping next to the abandoned building, so I brought him here. He said he got lost in the stars."
Now I really seem crazy. That wasn't a good excuse. I felt a cold shiver run down my back. I turned towards Sugawara and the look in his eyes left me mute. Shit.
"Don't you dare make excuses like that. Who the fuck gets lost because of the stars? Don't fucking joke with me. You will tell us now what is wrong and I don't take no as an answer." He said angry. I don't like this Suga.
"You promised you will let me alone. Don't break your world." I said seriously and a little scared. I don't like being around angry people. He suddenly raised his hands. No...
"Don't hit me please." I yelled protecting my face.
Everything went quiet after that. I then realized what I said. Oh. My. Shit.
I slowly put my hands down and looked at the boys. Daichi had a terrified look on his have and Suga had...guilt? Nah, they don't care.
"Heh. Sorry guys. My instincts are awesome sometimes. Sad they don't appear when balls hit me." I said chuckling. I am doomed. Like hell they will believe.
"Hinata...who hits you? What is going on? Please tell me!" Sugar cried. He cried. What...?
"Why are you worrying so much. We don't even know each other for so long." I said confused. They shared a look.
"Of course we care. You are our teammate. Our friend. Our second family. The volleyball is like a big family without blood connections. And you are a part of that family. Everyone cares for you. Like you do for us. And we all are concerned about your well being. Even Tanaka and Noya noticed your odd state. So please, tell us what is wrong." Said Daichi with a small voice, cracking a little smile. Should I trust them? Won't he hurt them? There is a very slim chance that he finds out anyway. I am sick of hiding. Well, they can know the essentials.
"Well, when I was little I had done something very bad and because of me some people were treated badly. I could help these people if I got beaten. So, for a couple of years, I received this beats once a week, but, because the people I helped returned, I made a deal with the one who hits me. And now, because of an argument, I decided it is best to not return to my street, in case he is looking for me." I said fast. I feel so refreshed. It is still not good explicated, but that will do for now.
"Oh, God. That's why you were sometimes limping during the training..." Said Daichi being in thoughts. Well, who would think that the sunshine boy has this type of problem?
"I have a question." Said Suga. "One of the people you saved was Shou, isn't he?"
"That's right. When you caught is talking in the changing room we were talking about this. He and the other person promised me they will never return." I explained to them. "I hope this will answer some of your questions."
"Have you tried reporting them?" Asked Daichi.
"I wanted to, but they had evidence of my mistake. So I couldn't risk it." I said, thinking about the past. Father threatened me that if I ever report him, he will say to the police how Shouma died.
"That mistake... It was that big?" Asked Suga, not being able to believe I did something bad.
"Yes, it is my fault this happened, so I need to support the consequences.
"No, no. No one deserves this, whatever they did. You can't live like this forever." said Daichi, being the worried father of the team.
"I won't. After I graduate I will move away from here and change my identity." I said my plan to them.
"That man who hurts you... Is he that powerful?" Said Suga trying to figure things out. That won't work.
"Let's just say that he has a little power." I said smiling a little. Bullshit. He was our president right hand before he got fired. He knows everyone and everything.
"Ok, I won't ask you anything now. I will bring you a blanket, so sleep here for the night." Said Daichi as he left the room. I remained with a silent Suga.
"Sorry for raising my hands. I wanted to shake your shoulders." He said looking down.
"It is ok. You didn't know I will freak out. Neither did I. Usually, I don't." I said to him, trying to cheer him up.
"When people say you are weak, they are so wrong. You have been strong for so long, so, please, come to us to help you. Even if it means tending your wounds or talking. You can count on us." He responded, hugging me.
"Thank you, really." I said showing a true smile.
The first true smile I showed someone in a while. It feels nice.

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Note: Hey guys. Here is the new chapter. I wanted to thank you for reading this shitty book. You don't know how grateful I am. Maybe I will do a special chapter with one ship. Don't know yet. If you have any request tell me. And what do you think about the new cover? It is my first time I have done one and I am quite pleased with the results. See ya next time.