Salvation (Depressed Hinata fanfic)

Chapter 3

Everything to protect you

      Hinata's pov

   The world is too cruel. The first time I wanted to never finish the classes and they went by too fast. As usual, I was done changing before the others got there. I couldn't risk, especially with my new wounds. I wish all of this could stop. I wish everything was like before. I wish I was happy. But, these things are impossible. I need to suffer. I deserve it. That's why Shou and mom cannot be with me. They don't need to endure it. It is my fault he died, so I will pay the price for it.
"Hin...Hinata!" I trembled when I heard my name. "Are you ok? We've been calling you for 5 minutes" Suga asked me, as the others gave me concerned looks.
"Y...Yeah of course. I was lost in thoughts." I said, giving my signature smile. It always works.
"You know we will always be there for you. So if anything is wrong, you can talk to us." Said Daichi. Well, this is strange. As I looked into their eyes, they all had fallen for my happiness, but in the eyes of third years, I could see the doubt. I need to be careful.
"I know, but everything is ok. Thank you guys!" I responded as I was heading excitedly to the gym.
I began to stretch myself as the others came into the room.
"Ok guys. We will test Shou's skills today, so we will play 5vs5."  said Ukai, as he made the teams.
Me, Kageyama, Tanaka, Ennoshita and Tsukki vs Shou, Daichi, Suga, Noya and Yamaguchi.
The score was 24-23 in their favor. The ball was at us. Me and Kageyama exchanged looks and, as he set in my direction, I began to run, ready for our quick attack. Everything hurts. 'Ignore the pain. Concentrate on the ball. Concentrate into jumping. Don't mind the pain. Feel the ball as it slams your hand and your feet as you jump. Feel it and score a point. You can do it Hinata.' I thought as I jumped. I analyzed the opposite team and, as I was about to pick a place to slam the ball, I saw Shou's eyes on me. He looked at me like...him. I thought I saw my father. I froze in the air, as I felt the ball go past me and slam de door. Everyone was shocked. They won the match.
  "Good job everyone. I will tell you tomorrow about the match because it is getting late. So scratch and go home!" Said Ukai, as he left the gym with Takeda-sensei.
  "Oi, dumbass! How did you miss that? We did it a lot before!" Shouted Kags as I was trying to forget the competitive look in my brother's eyes.
  "Baka! Everyone makes mistakes!" I shouted back. I could feel his gaze on me, so I excused myself and went to change.
 
    Later that night

"I'm home!" I said quietly, as I entered the house, knowing that my father will come home later.
"Well, well! Welcome home, brat. Come over here." I flinched when I heard my father's voice.
I slowly walked towards the living room. He was there, sitting on the couch with a beer in his hand. The room smelled like alcohol and cigarettes. How can he breathe?
"Yes, father. What do you need?" I lowered my head as I said that?
"How was at school?" He asked.
I stared confused at him. Something is odd.
"As usual, sir."
"I see... Then let me ask you another way. Guess who I saw today." He said bluntly. No...It can't be. Not so fast.
"Uhmmm... Your old colleagues?" I said, tried to look confused.
He then grabbed my hair and pushed me on the floor.
"You piece of shit. Don't act if you don't know. I saw your little copy entering the school with the other bitch. Now we can be a family again, don't you think?" He said as he pushed me in the stomach. It hurts...
"Stop, please! Don't involve them again, please. I will do anything!" I said between punches, feeling the blood dripping from my mouth.
"Anything you say..." Oh shit! He looked at me with lustful eyes and a creepy smile on his face.
"You know, you look a lot like your mother..." He stopped hitting me as he threw me on the couch.
"No... No! Stop it!" I tried to escape from his hands. I punched his sensitive part and I tried to run to my room. Suddenly, I felt something hit my head. I stopped and touched where it seems a bottle of whiskey touched me. I looked in horror as my hand was covered in blood. My blood. I felt dizziness take over me and, caught without guard, my father dragged me back and slammed me into the wall.
"Where do you think you going, brat?"
He roughly kissed me, as his hands touched all my wounds and lowered down.
"S...stop it! Please!" I tried to escape again, only to be pushed again, my front touching the wall. He quickly took down my pants and penetrated me. I felt my insides were ripped off. I could feel my cuts opening again, as he pushed his member hard in me. The pain was indescribable. The fainting feeling appears again as I begged him to stop.
"Shut up you bitch!" He shouted as he grabbed his belt and put it on my neck, trying to choke me.
"I...can't breathe. Please stop.!" I said as my powers left me. He soon released inside me and I felt fast on the floor. Then, he grabbed a bottle and started hitting me on my arms, legs and stomach, not letting me faint.
After some time, he stopped and before I drifted to the black abyss I heard.
"One thing you are good at. This will do for now. How about another round?"
I swear his devil voice followed me into my dreams, as he started to fuck again my sleeping body.

  
I slowly opened my eyes. I was on the floor. As I tried to get up, I felt the throbbing in my back and the usual pain in my body. As I looked over my wounds, I found out that I passed out in my own blood. Gross... I got up just to feel something dripping from my ass. Oh shit... With small steps I headed towards the bathroom and looked into the mirror. I couldn't recognize myself. My body was covered in bruises, cuts and pieces of glass. I had blood in my hair and over my mouth. As I looked down I could see bitting marks and blood. I can't believe he did it. I started to cry as I looked over my face. The bags under my eyes were accompanied by my red and dull eyes. What happened to me? I remember the shining hair and the happiness of my eyes from the past. Where did that Hinata disappeared? Then I remembered. He died. He died with Shouma. Pff... How awful is that? Well, I can't deny that I deserve it. It's my fault their lives got destroyed. And now, I will do everything. I will do anything to protect them from this hell. I promise.