solace [bsd (various) x reader]

it's okay [kunikida doppo]

i really said [publish works] yet proceeded to go  y e e t  lmfao
hello cuties i hope yall are SAFE and doing fine
giving u all kitheth bc i love u all saur much ^3^

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it was a fun filled day today after the armed detective agency was granted a day off by fukuzawa and had planned to go to the beach.

all of you participated in some activities such as beach volleyball wherein dazai was almost considered a volleyball by kunikida since he was ticking off the idealistic man again. poor kunikida.

you and atsushi had been missing steps as the two of you were too drawn in playing, more like panicking to save the ball to be honest, face planting the sand in the process.

another activity was the fun game of tag but with water guns instead. you had teamed up with yosano, kyouka, and dazai while the other team consisted of ranpo, tanizaki, naomi, and atsushi. you and dazai had agreed on sabotaging kunikida.

kunikida didn't participate in the game since he was helping out with the barbecue for dinner... actually the meals in general.

your plan is to approach kunikida harmlessly and ask him about tonight's dinner then dazai will ambush kunikida.

and here you are executing your plan!

"kunikida-kun!" you call out to the bespectacled male to which kunikida whipped his head towards your direction with that signature facial expression of his which seemed to... soften after seeing you?

your eyes widened and immediately brushed that thought away so as to prevent yourself from having false hopes. nobody wants that shit.

and so you pushed through, pushing your feelings aside for him.

you noted that kunikida eyed the water gun you were holding, probably speculating that you had some shenanigans.

"don't worry, i won't attack you." you grinned at the handsome idealistic man to which he shrugged it off. you look more trustworthy than the scheming dazai after all.

"(last name), what is it?" kunikida queries before peeling his attention away from you to tend to what he's grilling. ah, looks delectable.

"can i talk to you?"

"we're already talking now—"

"...alone together, i meant." you chuckle to remove the awkwardness between each other that you didn't know had started to build up.

kunikida raised his brow at you before calling haruno to substitute for him in grilling to which the woman complied with a small smile adorning her beautiful face.

you and kunikida walked side by side, taking him somewhere far from other ears could hear for all you wanted was kunikida's attention. his and his alone.

for some reason, you're slightly straying away from the plan you and dazai had formulated. for some reason, you started to let your heart control you, which shouldn't be the case.

you stopped in your tracks, the waves of the sea hitting your bare feet and the cool breeze softly making contact on your bare skin.

kunikida had stopped too, standing beside you who seemed to be relaxed which is quite unusual. did he break a schedule just to be with you?

you bit your lower lip, hastily brushing away another thought that fuels your false hopes. honestly, your heart can be this chaotic and it's not great at all.

"isn't the moon beautiful tonight?" you commented, looking at the ethereal celestial body decorating the cobalt blue night sky above your existence.

kunikida directs his attention to the same view that you adore and admire so much, not saying any words but he definitely agreed to what you said.

until kunikida realized what you were trying to imply with those words.

"i'm sorry." he responds, fixing his glasses as the wind sweeps stands of his and your hair while you just cringed at his response.

that's the response you wanted to hear the least.

"i can't view the moon the same way as you do."

you chuckled bitterly at his rejection even though you saw it coming.

it's shit. you prepared for this but being in the actual situation, it hits different. it hurts even more.

"kunikida, you don't have to apologize." you looked up at him, (eye color) orbs glistening bitterly, matching very well with your own bitter-filled smile.

"it's okay. it's not your fault why i'm suffering like this. it's my fault for catching feelings."

immediately, you pulled out your water gun and shoot the man with the water contained in it and that was dazai's signal.

"kunikida-kun, you're so lame!" dazai teased his colleague, shooting kunikida too with water.

"(last name)! dazai!" kunikida yells, evidently pissed, and immediately grabbed atsushi's water gun which baffled the weretiger since he was just passing by.

"shit!" you laughed to at least ease yourself from that rejection, in hopes of convincing kunikida that your confession was just untrue.

but kunikida saw from your expression, especially from your eyes, that everything you said and showed were indeed raw and true. after all, eyes never lie.

you kept shooting kunikida as you started to run away from the two bickering 22 year olds, still laughing.

laughing in order to prevent yourself from crying to which you failed to do so.

you didn't notice the tears broke free and fell relentlessly down your face. due to this, the grin that you had earlier had instantly vanished as your lips quivered, making you gradually stop running to cover your face as you started to sob.

you felt pathetic.

and the moon witnessed it all.

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hi i am constantly crying in the club ... i hope yall .. liked this
i'm really sorry for being inactive!!!! i dont really have much motivation to write :<

btw in old japanese saying "isnt the moon beautiful tonight" means the same as saying "i love you" ... i've seen it somewhere!!!! iirc it was on tiktok....

but ok thats all i hope all of you are safe and executing safety precautions!!!!