Fix me // c.d. (Sequel to Shatter me)

3 - ding dong

*Alia's POV *

I feel like going to get him. Nash hasn't told me anything more of Cameron. I'm afraid it's because he thinks I wouldn't be able to handle it. I'm afraid Cam's done the unthinkable and began cutting. I've stayed strong for him, I hope he can do the same for me. I miss him. I'm afraid for him. I have no clue what's been happening to him right now. It hurts to not know. It truly hurts.

"Alia, I need to go somewhere. Would you like to come with?" Nash comes into my room, dressed in a short sleeve blue mottled shirt, black jeans, and black vans.

"Where is that?" I asked. Goodness, I feel like I haven't spoken normally in years. I sound more like a mother asking her child where they are going with friends than I do myself.

"An old friend's house. It's not too far." He says. I sigh.

"Alright, let me change." I agree and stand up from Cameron's bed. Yes, Cameron's bed. I slept in here last night. And the night before. I feel like he needs me as much as I need him.

"You're fine in that." He groans. I almost laugh.

"Just let me brush my hair." I say. He puts his hands in the air and begins to walk off.

"Okay, fine." He laughs. I smile, not a real smile. I quickly take my hair out of the messy bun it's in and brush it. It's about shoulder length now. I miss my long hair. Luckily my hair grows quickly. Once my hair is brushed out, I throw on a pair of black Ugg boots that Nash gave me. I waddle down the stairs to Nash. He looks up from his phone and puts it away.

"Lets go!" He exclaims. We get into the car and I get lost in the music playing on the radio for most of the ride until Nash speaks.

"You miss him a lot don't you?" He says.

"Yeah, I-I do." I stutter, holding back the tears. "Do you?" He laughs.

"You have no idea." He glances over at me. "He's like my brother. I love him. It kills me that he left and did that horrible thing because of me. I shouldn't have told him that I loved you. It's all my fault here. And that kills me." He states, tears rise in his eyes. He wipes them quickly away.

I remain silent unsure of what to say.

"I just wish he wasn't so temperamental!" I yell suddenly. Nash flinches at the words that I didn't mean to let out of my mouth. Nash looks at me as we stop at a red light. He seems so lost in this mess. This is the first time I've really taken his new look in. The look where everything is falling apart. Bloodshot eyes, blotchy cheeks from dried tears, chapped lips, he's skinnier in stature, his eyes once bright blue have become dull and almost gray. He's changed. "I'm sorry." I whisper, my voice almost breaking.

"Don't be." And that was it. We arrived at an unfamiliar house. My heart kept, hoping this was Matt's new house and that Cam lives here with him. I really truly hope that he would be there to open the door and embrace me in a hug. I couldn't think of anyone else who would surprise me anymore. Nash knocks on the door and someone opens it. Oh my god.

"Kian!" I yelp and lunge forward, wrapping him into the tightest of hugs. "I missed you so much!" I say. He hugs me tightly.

"You too sweetheart, it's been awhile." He laughs. It's great to hear that laugh again. After he release the hug he bends down to my large stomach and smiles at it. "Hi there, I'm your mommy's friend." He whispers to my stomach. I slightly smile. Wow, kian really is a cutie. I never realized it through our friendship but just maybe I might have feelings for him. I quickly push the though away and enter the house. I'm greeted by two small dogs. One is wishbone, and the other is Kian's new puppy Hazel. I bend down and pet them both. I wish we had the time for a dog. Kian has texted me all about everything. We've talked but not with voices. I miss it. He leads us in to sit on the couch.

"So, I bet you guys have some catching up to do. I need to film a dare video with Jc. Bye." Nash says and leaves us alone in the room together.

"I know this is a touchy subject but," he pauses. I notice he changed his hair back to it's original color. "I-I'm sorry about what Cam did to you." I look away from him. "He shouldn't be putting you through this."

"I still love him. And he still loves me. According to Nash he is deep into sorrow over this as well." I say. Suddenly I have an idea.

"Kian, would you like to be there for the baby's birth if Cam doesn't show up?" I ask. He smiles widely.

"Of course!" He exclaims. "Have you picked a name for her yet?" He asks. I nod. "What is it?" I shake my head.

"Can't tell yet." I smile. "But, I do know the godfather." I smile.

"Who?" He inquires.

"You." I say. He hugs me.

"Thank you so much. I'm so proud of you for staying with all of this even without him." He whispers in my ear. Suddenly a noise surprises me.

Ding dong
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a/n: who could it be?

I'm tryin to lighten the story up a little bit

I brought kian back omg yay

I chose the name for the baby yay!

I'm so lame bye

Have a good day/night depending in where you live

K bye