Sad Heartbreaking Poems

Scars That Will Never Go Away

33 cuts 33 scars that will never go away
I'm speechless I've got nothing left to say
I'm the only one who knows how many
How many times I do purposeful sinning
The light shines on the knife like a spotlight
When I hold it I hear it screaming at me to end the fight
This life isn't something that's worth trying for
This pain feels amazing while I bleed on the floor
Tears like rain 
On the ground in all this pain
Fighting for my life while I crawl towards the phone
I keep on bleeding my whole life has been blown
I tried so hard to carry this world on my back
But I guess I was tired of living in a world of black
If I could go back I know I wouldn't do it again
I'd just do one cut, maybe two but suicide is a sin
Oh wait...there's a dim light in the distance
Is it god? I don't know...but I'm not innocent
Maybe he realized the purpose I had
Maybe he'll give me a second chance to not be bad
Wait...no it was the light of the porch
My mom just walked in through the door
I can hear her screaming, crying reaching for the phone
The one I couldn't get to before my chance was blown
I'm using all my strength to call out her name
But I can't say anything I'm just playing the possum game
I slowly move my head just to give her a sign
A sign that I haven't yet died
Now there it is the siren coming closer
Thank you god for not letting me leave her
I am all she has, there's no one else in her life
The sirens just came and now they're a dying light
Why did I do this I'm thinking how she feels
The one she loved and trusted did this at my heart it reels
I'm so sorry I say when I wake up
"Why did you do this, did I push you to give up?"
I look into her face, she feels that no one cares
After I did this she think no one will be there
But I can't blame her I'm sorry oh god she's thinking how she lost him
Now I know suicide is a permanent fix for a temporary problem