broken heart-strings (seer x embalmer, +more ships apparently)

fifty-four

-:-:- Eli -:-:-

Cold air pulsated around me in a sickening radiation, but there was nothing I could do about that.

I've gotta be fucking crazy at this point.

My heart felt like it was breaking in my chest, as I pushed myself up to a sitting position. I couldn't feel my hands, and my blindfold was gone. This is bad.

"Eli?! Where are you?!" Naib's voice yelled out once again. I couldn't do anything but sit there with my ears ringing like crazy. Why would I want to move my body anyways? Being numb has always been better.

"Eli!"

My body burned and ached, but I looked up at the voice. Naib was running right towards me, Aesop and Tracy by his side. I couldn't help but flinch, when he bent down and grabbed my upper arm.

"Eli! Why the fuck did you walk out of the manor like that?!" he screamed at me.

Naib ripped me to my feet, making my brain spiral to thoughts I thought I had once abandoned. They rippled through my head, leaving pain and dull stinging to course through my entire body. I couldn't help but gasp gently.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"A lot of things." I mumbled as a reply, not sure if he really caught onto my words.

Thank god they're here to pull me from all this. This hallucinations shit is killing me. Maybe it's finally over. Maybe i can finally leave, but... how am I supposed to believe that any of this is even real? taking a bath with Aesop felt so... real. What if it really isn't over.

Taking a second to clear my mind, I looked up at Naib. He looked almost angry, but Aesop looked worse. He looked scared. I wasn't sure why, but it made me burst into tears.

"Come on, Eli. We need to get you to Emily so she can fix you up again."

I groaned, as Naib began to pull me, but I moved with him. He ripped me forward again, just at the right angle that my ankle snapped out of place under me and i fell forward.

FUCK-

Preparing for the impact did nothing, as my body just kept falling. Naib wasn't holding onto me any longer; it was just me falling through the darkness, like what had happened a hundred times before.

I knew it was fake.

Everything in this life is totally fucking fake.

-:-:-

"Emily...? Are you alright?"

The doctor looked up with tired eyes, watching as two people entered her bedroom. Naib glanced at her to Tracy, before slowly walking over to the sickly girl.

"Yeah. Just trying to keep the bird alive."

Naib sighed heavily, gently petting Brooke Rose's neck and watching as she squirmed.

Everything in the manor seemed to be breaking.

-:-:-

I'm so sorry.

I'm so fucking sorry about everything.

I'm sorry for the short chapter, I'm sorry about updating late, I'm sorry about disappearing for awhile, and I'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass. My life is currently falling apart and I'm not sure what to do about it, but I hope to get an actual good chapter out soon.

This one makes little to no sense and it has little to no importance too. I'm so sorry... I'll try harder.

Fuck. I'm sorry. I love all you guys and feel just fucking horrible all the time. I couldn't focus on a single sentence of this chapter, but I had to get something out there so you all know this is not the end and I'm not dead.

Thank you so much for reading, my lovelies.

-Mags++