Puppy Love (DeanLee)

Chapter 11

"How long has he been using?"

"I didn't know he was using," AJ flatly said.

"What do you mean you didn't know," AJ shrugged. The doctor sighed,"Sweetheart he's near being underweight. Not to mention people who don't abuse cocaine don't end up in the ER with an overdose."

AJ looked at Dean realizing how much weight he had lost. How could she be so dumb to notice? AJ began to cry for the 50th time time that night.

"Maybe 2 months? I'm not sure but I thought he stopped when we started dating, I didn't know," AJ choked out. "Is he going to be okay?"

"Yes he is. As soon as he wakes we will release him and we strongly recommend admitting him into a rehab," and with that the doctor left.

It felt like an eternity till he woke up. AJ felt relieved but also angry. How could he keep his use away from her? How could he lie? Dean looked and was confused when he woke up.

"What the fuck happened?" Dean asked trying to remember the last thing he did.

"You overdosed," Dean felt/heard his heart pump in his ears realizing AJ had finally known. "You've also been lying to me."

"AJ," Dean reached to grab her hand and AJ pulled her hand away,"I'm sorry AJ."

"In my house. Where else have you done this? When else have you been on fucking coke?" AJ didn't know how her sadness had turned into anger. She didn't expect to begin going off on him like this.

"Is that a rhetorical question or do you want me to answer?"

"I want to you to answer."

"I don't know all the places but I've been doing it everyday," Dean admitted.

"Halloween?" Dean nodded,"Thanksgiving?" Dean nodded again,"your birthday?" AJ felt her heart implode when he nodded again.

"AJ," AJ interrupted his sentence by getting up from her chair and walking off into a bathroom. She began to weep not knowing what to do. Everything was tainted. The nose bleeds after nose bleeds, every time he had been in the restroom too long everything finally made sense.

What should she do? What could she do? AJ wiped her tears and realized she could not allow herself to go through this. AJ walked back and sat down next to Dean and began to speak.

"Dean, you have made me feel things I thought was only in movies. I have never wanted to be with someone all the time even when you frustrate me I just want you here," Dean smiled reach to hold her hand but AJ pulled her hand away again confusing Dean,"but I don't know if this pain is worth it."

"Are you leaving me?" Dean's smile was now gone and he was unable to be read.

"Don't say it like that," Dean scoffed and rolled his eyes.

"You know what AJ? Get the fuck outta here. Leaving me at one of my lowest points because your life is too fucking good for my bullshit," Dean snapped looking straight into AJ's eyes.

"Fuck you my life is not too good you don't know anything about me," AJ argued back.

"What? You're a rich kid who's an 'alcoholic'," Dean airquoted,"alcoholic my fucking ass."

"How-"

"I ask around. I know people. I always know more than you think," Dean interrupted,"now get out of here."

AJ stood up and left.

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"AJ, I miss you," Dean pleaded as AJ tried to walk past him. Dean had been clean an entire 2 weeks trying his hardest to get AJ back.