Sister protection program

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I slowly sit up and look around.
I somehow ended up on the living room couch back at the boys' place.

I see the boys in the kitchen cooking something. I somewhat laugh to myself. There's no time that they aren't trying to eat something.
"Hey Lillian-" Luke softly says, focusing my attention on the blonde boy sitting on the other side of the couch, face laced with concern
I suddenly remember all that happened.
Although, it all feels like something I dreamed.

We sit for a moment in awkward silence.
"Was that... real?" I ask in hope that is wasn't.
He slowly nods. "I- yeah. It was." He breaths out a large sigh scratching his neck.
I look to my feet.
"How are you feeling?" He asks softly and genuinely. I take a deep breath.
"Where do I begin?"
"I understand." He nods and silence falls again. I hate this.

I try to sit up but Luke is faster.
"Hey hey easy" he comes over and helps me slowly sit up before sitting beside me.
"The letter, Luke." I gently say, remembering the realization I had before blacking out.
He looks to me confused.
"The letter Sam wrote." I say not making eye contact.
"What about-" he stops as if it all comes back to him.
"Sam knew. My dad knew. My whole family knew but me." I whisper.

He leans in and hugs me.
I hug back tight.
A tear starts to roll down my cheek.
"I thought I lost my twin but I just found out that I didn't and-"
"Shhh I know, I know, shhh" he whispers rubbing my back.
"I know somewhat how you feel. I thought I lost my twin too. Although I didn't ever get to know her so I know it's different."

We hug for a long time until I finally break it.
Luke puts a hand on my shoulder.
"I haven't told the boys, for all they know she never told us anything, on the way there you passed out so we came back, ok?" He looks me in the eye and continues "so we don't even have to talk about it now. Today never happened for now. If you're up for it we can even go out tonight and just get your mind off of it. We can talk about it whenever you're ready."
I look at him and notice just how much we do look alike.
I never noticed it until now.

I nod. "Okay." He nods too and he helps me stand.
We go into the kitchen and him and I sit at the island.
"Aye Lillian! You alright? You've been passed out for a while." Ashton asks washing a dish.

I nod. "Yeah I'm great. Actually are you guys up for going out tonight?" I ask. Luke smiles.
"Hell yeah!" Crystal says setting down her glass.

"Man I still have a hangover, but fuck it" Calum says putting a dish in the oven.
"But..my lasagna" Micheal mumbles sadly taking off his apron. Ashton laughs and pats him on the back "Mikey we'll eat the lasagna before going out."

Crystal comes up to my room after we eat Micheal's lasagna.
"So what's knew with you?" She asks getting dressed after going through my closet trying to find something to wear since she didn't know we were going out and didn't pack.
Oh what I could tell her.

I take a deep breath fishing up my makeup. "I came back from my date with Ben and Calum was acting really weird, the entire week he was a bitch to me and I ended up running to the pier, Calum got drunk, and then I kissed him and I don't know what the fuck is going on" I breath out.

She turns to me.
"Damn. That was a lot. Wait you and Calum kissed?!" She asks when it hits her.
"Yeah I don't know what happened either."
I say covering my face with my hands.
"I thought you liked Ben?"
"I do! I think."
"So you don't like Calum"
"I do! I think.."
"Ok. So just don't date either until you know." She shrugs.
"Wow. That sounds too simple."
She shrugs putting on lipstick.
"That's what I do."

"What does this Benjamin guy look like anyway?"  "I'll show- shit. I forgot my phone downstairs be right back." I say getting up.
I run downstairs and hear the door bell as I pick my phone off the coffee table.

"Hello- oh-"
"Hey Lillian!" Benjamin stands in the doorframe. "You haven't answered your phone in two days, I just thought I'd stop by and make sure you're alright" he shrugs nervously.
"Uh yeah. I'm fine- sorry about that I forgot to check my phone recently."
"Where you going?"
He asks pointing to my clothes.
"Oh I am- I'm going out with some friends actually. It's just girls or I would've invited you"  I explain nervously.

"Oh yeah no totally I get it. Alright then I'll see you later" "see you-" he cuts me off with a kiss and leaves.

I slowly close the door and hear
"No fucking way."

I quickly turn around and see Calum standing there in the living room.