lost stars || jjk

eleven

It didn't matter if Jungkook apologized. I don't even know if I still love him, much less, forgive him. It's been five years, but five years really changes people.

God, why? Why do things always have to happen to me?

Jungkook walked out of the bathroom and looked at me. "I'll be busy today, so you're free to go walk around."

"You don't want me to go with you?" I asked, feeling a little bummed out. He brought me all the way to America for no reason.

He shook his head. "You aren't needed."

Why did that actually hurt my heart?

"Oh." was all I said. It's been a little rough for us. A week had gone by since that night.

But ever since that night, things just haven't been the same with us. He's much ruder and distant.

Even if I felt pity for Jungkook, I don't think I'm ready to forgive him just yet.

Five years can do a lot to you, and I learned that I need time for myself and only myself. But my grandpa is also my other main priority right now.

I feel like I'm just not ready to forgive him and look past it.

Jungkook grabbed his things and began to walk towards the door. "You're leaving already?"

He nodded. "Bye."

I pulled his arm back before he could get the chance to leave.

"What?" He said with annoyance in his voice, and looked at his arm. I pulled my arm back and restrained myself from doing that again. I can't believe I just did that.

"Y-You forgot about your tie..." I explained.

Jungkook sighed and dropped his stuff onto the bed, going by the mirror to tie his tie. But he struggled in doing so and came towards me. "Can you help?"

No.

"Hurry up, Soyeon. I'm running late." he complained, running his fingers through his hair. I hesitated to walk over to the mirror and he moved to face me. Our faces were only a few inches apart, and I gulped. I was too close. Way too close. I struggled to tie his tie due to the fact that I could feel his breath on my fingers and my heart thumping loud.

"What's taking so long?"

I furrowed my eyebrows. "There you go."

"Thanks." And with that, he left.

• • •

- Jungkook's Pov -

I know that I hurt Soyeon, but I wish she could understand my perspective on our relationship. Yes, I did cheat on her - Something I really regret doing, but I know there is nothing I can do to fix that.

She's not willing to listen. She's not willing to forgive me. I'm sick of you, Kim Soyeon. Your entire existence drives me crazy...

"Where is Soyeon?"

Jimin walked into the room and sat across from me. Taehyung came in a little after and sat down beside me.

I studied Jimin's intentions. Why did he care about Soyeon so much?

"And why the fuck do you care?" I asked him.

"Chill, Jungkook." Taehyung mumbled.

I looked over towards Jimin and noticed him throwing his arms up in the air in defense. "It was just a question, you little shit." I glared at Jimin.

"Why does she concern you?"

Jimin chuckled. "She's single right?"

"Again, I'm asking you, why does she care concern you?" I gritted my teeth. Taehyung noticed how uncomfortable and unpleasant I was by Jimin's presence so he tried to clear the air, but unfortunately, it didn't work.

Jimin smirked. "I thought you were over her?"

I nodded my head. "I am, but that doesn't allow you to fucking flirt with her."

"I'll flirt with whomever I want, whenever I want." he said arrogantly.

That's it. I stood up and charged towards him. He stood up but Taehyung attempted to pull me back so I pushed him off of me and shoved Jimin against the wall.

He groaned in pain. "What the fuck?"

"Jungkook, stop-"

"Stay out of this, Taehyung!" I glared at him. He backed away from me and remained silent.

I punched Jimin against his face once, and he lost balanced. He quickly wiped the blood dripping from his mouth, and glared at me.

He stood up and charged at my face; I lost balance and fell onto the floor, groaning. "I'm warning you," He laughed and stared at me laying on the floor all weak. "Don't fucking punch me again."

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a/n: that was hella intense 😳