The Love I Hate (𝓜𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓪)

chapter 20

y/n pov:
we arrive to a hotel
"why are we at a hotel" i ask still mad at him
"i'm keeping you safe" he says getting out the car
"i don't need protection need i remind you i'm the boss of the cartel" i say not getting out of the car
"come on" he says pulling trying to pull me out the car
"i'm not getting out" i say crossing my arms
"fine then what are we gonna go" he asks rolling his eyes
"just take me home" i say annoyed
" no they'll look for you there first" he says
"you know what, i'll go walking"i say getting out the car
"y/n stop" he says grabbing my wrist
"leave me alone mattia" i say as i pull out of his grip
"why are you so stubborn" he says
"why are you so bossy" i say snapping
"because i tried to help you but you have a huge ego" he says
"i don't need your help polibio" i say raising my voice
"WHY CANT YOU JUST PUT YOUR EGO ASIDE AND LET YOU BOYFRIEND DO SOMETHING TO HELP YOU?" he says yelling at me now
i start to feel tears form in my eyes. i never you used to cry when someone raised their voice at me, well until now.
"no no i'm sorry" he says trying to hug me
"mattia how are we even going to work if all we do if fight or if we don't fight we are having sex" i say sobbing
he stays quiet
"this isn't going to work" i say
"no don't say that" he says holding me
"mattia it's true we're both leaders and in the long run this wasn't going to work out" i say pushing away from him
"you can't be serious?!" he says with glossy eyes
"mattia give me another solution!"i say looking into his eyes
"we could take it slower, we could....Idk just please don't do this" he says trying to hold me
"mattia we are both too stubborn to let this work" i say grabbing his face
"one more chance just one come on babe we literally just got together a week ago" he says
"exactly which is why if we keep this up it will get worse" i say

as i look at him i see him starting to tear up.
"y/n please don't do this" he says
"i won't push you i'm sorry i'll do anything you want i just don't want you to leave me" he says holding my hands and looking deep into my eyes
"mattia look at you your crying i'm crying we are toxic for each other" i say
"i meant what i said the day you shot me, if it means being with you i'm willing to let you shot me as many times as you want physically and emotionally" he says not letting me go
"why?" i ask looking away
"because i love you" he said.

Flashback
"i love you" he says looking deep into my eyes
"promise you won't break my heart?" i say smiling
"i promise y/n" he says
"i love you" i said with all my heart
end of flashback

"no i can't" i say walking into the hotel lobby
"why cant you, what are you so afraid of?"he asks walking behind me
i walk to the register and i sign in and pay i get the key and walk to the elevator.
"mattia please just leave" i say pushing him away
"not until you tell me why you can't just say it" he says

Mattia pov:
i was getting mad why couldn't she just say three simple words. i wanted to help her but she kept shutting me out and i wasn't going to let her.
"JUST FUCKING TELL ME WHY?" i say with rage.
"BECAUSE THE LAST PERSON I SAID IT TO WAS THE PERSON THAT KILLED MY BROTHER HE BETRAYED ME." she yells back at me.
the elevator doors open and she walks out. my heart was telling me to follow her but i froze i couldn't move. she walks out and the elevator doors shut and it started going down. what had i done i didn't go after her when she needed me i left her for just like he did. i didn't know what to do, once the elevator doors opened i got out and i went to my car i got in and looked up at an open window and i could see y/n looking down at me. her eyes were poofy. i looked at her once again and closed my door turned on my car and drove off.

A/N
hey guys thanks for voting i really appreciate it and thank you for 2.1k reads i love you all so much. also i wanted to start a new story, (obviously continue this one) it would be another mafia story but different plot let me know if you guys are interested. ok byeee luv y'all