The love that never died//Ashton Irwin

The letter that changed my life

August 20th, 2012

Dear Bethan

I'm so sorry, I really am. You probably wont see me again, this is soo hard. I dont want to be with out you but I have to leave my mother she got a new job and well..... we are moving away to NZ! I'm going to miss you so much you wont know!! I'm never going to forget our first or last kiss! I love you sooo much... But i'm sorry I think its best if we break up... I dont want to but i'm so sorry your my best friend! Bethan I love you!!! You will always be in my heart! I will never forget you, but you should try and forget me!! We are never going to see or have contact with eachother again and im sorry I really am! By the time you read this I will be on my flight..... crying! I love you please dont forget that.

love Ash x

p.s sorry about the tear stains, I love you.

I read over the letter that was left on my bed two years ago, I miss him soo much, I dont know where he is now or even if he is still alive! I'm still in love with my cute stupid best friend! I search for him on facebook but nothing! I still ask his other friends if they have had contact with him! today is his birthday July 7th, here I am celebrating my best friends 20th birthday alone, for the second year in a row. I know sad but I cant just forget about him he was I mean is my one true love he means the world to me why did he leave he didnt even give me a good goodbye! I hope he remembers me! Who am I kidding he probably havent even thought of me, hes probably moved on! My mum still talks to his but refuses to give me her number but i dont know why, okay maybe I do Ashtons mum hates me but I dont know why. I just want contact with my best friend is that too much to ask!!

"Bethan are you okay?" my mum interrupts my thoughts, I look up as I watch her come over to me and wipe away my tears, to be honest i didnt even know I was crying. "babe i know you miss him but hes living his dream dont get contact with him dont ruin this for him"

"what do you mean living his dream" i remember he used to go on about being a world famous drummer in a band! no has he made it!

"he is in a band Bethan and you know if you get in contact he'd come running back here and wont go back because he loves you too much" I take a deep breath i'm so proud of my best friend he's made it!!! but without me by his side. Wait... was I holding him back!

"what's the band called" she shakes her head and walks out, I grab my phone and type in google 'Aussie drummers' I go through name by name until I see it it's him, his name, he's made it, i'm proud, I look down reading the info about him, most was correct but then I see his twitter, should I or nah, I shall. I go on twitter and type @Ashton5sos and click follow, he wont see that i followed him right? He has too many fans. I begin to read through his tweets, he's in the UK, on the other side of the fucking worrld!

Ashtons pov.

Its my twentieth birthday.... two years with out my best friend being next to me. I really really miss Bethan I think of her all the time, I have a draw full of letters that I didnt send to her, I really wish I did because she could be with me here in the Uk celebrating my 20th but instead shes on the other side of the world in the same place I left here. Every day I check up on here I text my mum who talks to Beths mum a lot, like I know that she has a boyfriend and is happy and doesnt even think about me.. that really did break my heart, if she was single and thought of me I would of flew accross the world to be with her, she's my one true love, our love will never die well she might have moved on from me but im still on her!! I need to move on!! but I cant!! I think back to August 20th 2012 the day I left her broken hearted, I remember placing the letter on her bed then hearing her mum walking in through the front door as I climbed out of her window, I was probably on the plane as she was reading. It was difficult leaving her.

"hey mate you orite?" I look up to Michael as he sits next to me, "it's your birthday dont have to be so sad!" he says while playfully pushing me.

"I miss her" a tear forms in my eye, I dont have to say her name all the boys know about her, I keep talking about her a lot with out knowing.

"awww man its okay, I understand you miss her but mate you need to move on she doesnt love you" he tries to cheer me up but really fails! "come on lets go down to the party" Michael pulls me up and drags me down stairs where every one is.

Bethans pov

My phone buzzes I take it out and read Ashton tweeted "2nd year with out you on my birthday, missing you a lot more than you will know" I burst in to tears as I read the tweet aimed at me, I need to tell him i'm here but... I cant I need him to know that I love him but I dont want to ruin his dream, it's better if he doesnt know. I'm not going to be the reason for the end of his fame.

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Short chapter I know but hope you like x