Misunderstood

Final Goodbye

Fuck it, my minds racing
Bullshit thinking I'm going to be okay
Whickey in my hand while I'm pacing
I can't say it to your face, it's not a fucking piece of cake.
I'm fucking hating what you and her have become
And I'm happy to for you, really I am, but I'm, but I'm done.

I love her and I thought knew that
I couldn't keep myself away.
She's my world, my fucking light
But it seems that you don't care.
You took her from me knowing I'd be this way
I wanna fucking die, maybe today is the day...

Fuck I'm not okay, not at all.
I'm laying with whiskey and cuts down my arm
But take her away, I'll be just down the hall.
I'm down there, frustrated and fucked up, just laying here dying.
But, I love her.
So please, just keep her smiling.

You were my brother, the one I couldn't trust.
Though it seems the only thing I can trust you to do is destroy.
Now you're with her, just know that I won't forget the pain you've caused.
I can't stand it.
I can't stand the way you've burned me,
I can't stand the way you've cut away a piece of my heart
When you took her from me.
Now I just want it all to end
I heard that love will fade,
But I really wish it would just fall away.
They were wrong, it doesn't fade or go away,
It stayed, and the pain is still there.
Why can't the wind just make it disappear?

I still love her and I want her to be happy,
I want to see her smile, I want her to see the light.
I just want her to be okay.
I know that's kinda sappy, and I know she's just fine.
I'm not going to argue, and I won't fight
I just want you to treat her right.
God, I wish I didn't care.
But wait, I don't, I don't care.
I don't care if I get hurt,
I don't care that you've both made me cry
And I don't care if tonight is when I die.

And even though it kills me to see her with another,
At least you both are happy are happier
And you can both have a cloudless sky.
I love you, and I love her too
But I'm sorry, for this is my final goodbye.