𝘞 𝘏 𝘌 𝘕 𝘙 𝘈 𝘐 𝘕 𝘍 𝘈 𝘓 𝘓 𝘚

please be human.

i had a friend
who once prayed that the plane i was in fell down
from the sky
so that i could see a heaven.
so that i could adopt a faith.

she once sent me a valentines day card
that said wish you were here.
i sent one back,
from hawaii, that said
be mine.

every time i fall asleep on a plane now,
anxiety attacks.

i think at some point,
i called her lover.

i think it was all in my head.

she said when she thinks of me,
she can see god's face.
she says it's beautiful.
says she exists just for me to enjoy.
says she can't wait until i'm home again.
thinks wherever she is is my home.
thinks we're meant to be.

and i think i fell in love as soon as i realised
i didn't want her.

when she kissed my hands,
her hair covered her mouth.
i swallowed some of it
when she kissed my lips.

i think it was all in my head.

— please be human.