Michigan

9

I woke up feeling nauseous. Instantly I shot up out of bed and ran to the bathroom. Once I got in a puked my guts out into the toilet bowl. I groaned and laid back onto the wall thinking of why I could've just thrown up. After a few minutes of sitting there I flushed the toilet and stood up. I washed my hands and face before going back to my room and laying in my bed. Calum was asleep on the bed and Harding was asleep on his little bed in the corner of the room. I cuddled into Calum and he instantly wrapped his arms around me.

I was still confused as to why I had thrown up but I didn't think into it to much.I didn't want to make myself go crazy with my own thoughts because if I do then I'll think it mean I have a disease or something. I fell back asleep since it was five in the morning.

I woke up a few hours later to Harding laying on top of Calum's chest both the boys were still asleep. I felt better then before, but I couldn't get the thoughts of why I threw up out of my head. Whatever I was thinking wasn't true and it couldn't be possible. I grabbed my phone and took a picture of the two before laying on my side and scrolling through tik tok laughing quietly whenever I saw a funny tik tok. I soon heard Harding waking up. "Hey baby come over here so you don't wake up dada" I whispered instantly realizing that I had just called him dada instead of Cal o Calum. I haven't done that before and I didn't want to get used to saying that. Harding came over and snuggled into me I put on Bubble guppies on my phone for Harding to watch.

"Momma I'm hungry" Harding said loudly making me shush him. "Shhh baby, cal is still sleeping, but we can go out and get you breakfast." I whispered we got up and went out to the kitchen I got him cereal and we watched more bubble guppies. I was left alone to my own thoughts and I remembered my ex which wasn't ever good.

Flashback

I had just gotten back to my apartment from work since I got off early. Jayce was there watching Harding since I had been working at this time. I was planning on quiting my job since my youtube channel had kind of taken off and I wanted to spend more time on that also Harding is a year and a half old and I wanted to spend my time with him. When I walked in I heard yelling and instantly knew it was Jack and Jayce fighting over something. "GET OUT OF THIS APARTMENT YOU CANNOT COME IN HERE AND YELL AT HARDING FOR DROPPING HIS TOY AND BREAKING IT" I heard Nikki yell "FINE I'M DONE WITH YOU GUYS. ALL YOU TWO IS BITCH AND COMPLAIN ABOUT ME. AND I SWEAR IF YOU TELL EMMA ABOUT THIS." Jayce said and came stomping out to the kitchen where I was standing shocked. He saw me and the look on his face softened. He walked over to me and tried to bring me in for a hug I started walking backwards."NO we are done. You cannot just come into my house and yell at my friends or my child. Do not try ad twist their words. I cant trust you anymore. We are done." I said while holding back my tears. This wasn't the first time something like this happened. About a month ago I came home to Nikki pissed off. She told me about what happened and I didn't believe her -stupid me- so I let it go.

Calums pov: (ooo risky)

I was woken up to little hands smacking my face. " Dada momma is crying and I don't know why" Harding said I instantly shot up and Harding ran out to the kitchen I followed behind him. Once I got out to the kitchen I could see Emma crying. I instantly ran up to her and pulled her into a hug. "Hey hey what's wrong" I said in a whisper. She didn't say anything she just clung to me and kept crying. "Here let's go over to the couch" I said and she nodded her head. She stood up and followed me to the couch. I laid down and she flipped on top of me which made me chuckle.

Harding ran over and sat on the couch next to my head. I could still hear Emma crying but I didn't want to say anything so I just kept rubbing her back.

I heard soft snores and instantly knew she had fallen asleep.we laid like that for an hour or so before she woke up. We stayed in the position for a little while until she asked "can you go to the store and buy a pregnancy test for me please?" To say I was shocked was an understatement. I didn't know what to say but luckily Emma said something "you don't have to. I just don't feel good and I want to stay hole but I need one" "uhhh yea I can I guess. I'll just have to change" I replied and she got off of me. I went back to her room and changed my shirt.

"Ok I'm going to the store bye" I said as Emma and Harding were cuddled up onto the couch. I got out of the apartment building and walked to target since it was really close to where the two lived.

I was trying to process why Emma needed a pregnancy test. She didn't have a boyfriend I thought. Or more so hoped. Once I got into target I looked at the signs above each isle. I found the isle and walked down it going to look for the pregnancy tests. I grabbed the one that looked the most fancy and clearly stated 'pregnancy test'. I went back to the food section remembering Harding was out of chocolate milk and how favorite cereal 'fruity pebbles'. I grabbed the two before realizing that Emma would want something. So I grabbed a jar of pickles because pregnant people like pickles right? I also got her Doritos since I knew she loved them.

I went to pay and luckily there wasn't anyone in lane 6 so I went to it and set the things down on the conveyor belt. The guy looked at me with a weird look on his face before saying "your that Calum guy right?" "Uhh yea" I said trying not to draw attention to myself. "Oh cool yea my girlfriend likes your music" he said with a smile while scanning the items. "Tell her I said thank you for listening and supporting" I said with a smile on my face thankful that he hadn't asked anything about the pregnancy test. "Will do. Your total is $50.78" I got out my card before putting it into the chip reader and signing my name on the little screen.

"Have a great day!" He said and handed me the bag with the stuff in it. "You too" I said ask I walked off. I got out of the store and headed back to the apartment. Surprisingly I got back to the apartment building without seeing any paparazzi during the whole outing. Luckily the apartment was unlocked so I went in and saw Emma and Harding on the couch watching tiger king. Harding was playing with his tigers ironically. "I'm homeeeee" I said while putting the bag on the counter. "Dada!" Harding said and ran over to me. I picked him up and squeezed him. "I missed you so much. I haven't seen you in a whole hour" I dramatically stated.

Emma chuckled and stood up from the couch. She walked over to the bag of things and pulled the items out. "Ok fruity pebbles" she said with her eyebrow raised. "You were out of them and Harding always asks for them" i said with a pout. Emma rolled her eyes and said "pickles interesting. Good thing I'm in love with pickles" she hugged the pickles then sat them down. "And Doritos touchdown. This is the reason I love you" she said not realizing she said that she loved me.

"I don't love you. I mean I do just not in that way" she said with a panicked look on her face. "Hey calm down no need to freak out about us" I said with a grin. "Ahhh yes and the devil himself" she said while pulling the pregnancy test out of the bag. Harding was playing with my nose since I was still holding him. "Dada I like your nose. I know I said that before but it's just so squishy and big" he said with a toothy smile.

"I like your smile. It's the cutest thing I've seen in my life" I said while booping his nose.

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Long time no cheese I kinda forgot what I do for authors notes tbh I remember. So the song that I'm listening to is July by Noah Cyrus. Love her. Kinda had an obsession with Hannah Montana when I was three but let's not talk about that even tho Noah isn't Miley but that's ok.

Beautiful ikr. What else is there to say. Uhmmm oh yea this chapter was long. I hoped you liked this chapter kinda took me a while because I didn't want to write. Ok that's all but love youuuu

-Emma