Michigan

12

"Dada don't leave. Stay with me and momma please" Harding said as he held onto Calum's leg with all his strength. Today was the day that Calum was leaving for tour. Harding didn't understand that he had to do something important so he was very upset. I had told him a few days before that Calum would be leaving and he didn't care then, but now that it's come to the day he was mad. We were currently saying bye to Calum at the apartment before he would be gone for 5 months. He had a few breaks in between, but he was going to see his family during that time which I understood. "Baby I'll be back in a few months. When I get back I promise we can go do something really fun ok?" Calum said going down to Harding's level. "Ok but promise me that you will call everyday and send me a kiss everyday" Harding said with a pout. "I promise. You promise me that you will keep your momma and little baby bean safe too ok?" Calum said with a thoughtful look on his face.

"I will don't worry" Harding replied with a tough look on his face. Calum kissed his cheek and gave him a hug before standing up. He came over to me and gave me a hug "Make sure to rest a lot and don't do too much to strain you or the baby" Calum demanded. "I'm only 2 months along theres no need for bed rest yet" I replied and rolled my eyes. "I know I just want you guys to stay safe" He sighed. "I know I know. Now you got out there and conquer the world." I said and waved my arms around "Will do. I love you guys" He said and gave me one final hug before leaving me and Harding alone for the first time in a week or two.

2 months later:

Calum has been on tour for 2 months and he hasn't messaged or called that much. For the first two weeks he called everyday then after that he started just sending pictures of each place he went. He hadn't called to talk to harding in a month and Harding started to get really sad. He would wait by my phone but when Calum didn't call he would stomp back to the room and lay on his bed and cry. This happened everyday for the past month. I decided to message Calum to see if he could call so I could get Harding to stop crying.

Me: hey I was wondering if Harding could call he's really angry right now and he wants to talk to you.

I sat the phone down by me on the couch not expecting for Calum to answer my text. The office was on the tv so I put my gaze on the funny show that I loved. I let Harding throw his little fit because soon enough he would come to me and ask for cuddles. Harding walked down the hallway sniffling and rubbing his eyes. He came over and sat on my lap to cuddle. "Why hasn't dada called me he promised" Harding said as he wiped his snot on his shirt. "I'm not sure baby. He's pretty busy with tour" I replied "did he forget about me?" Harding asked as he looked me in the eyes.

"Oh no baby he would never forget about you dada" I said and shook my head at the little mistake "I mean Cal is just very busy with work" I said and he nodded his head and laid his head on my shoulder. I saw my phone light up so I grabbed it and surprisingly Calum had messaged back.

Callywally: No.

Me: Ok well I hope your doing well and Harding misses you.

Callywally: yea ok.

Me: I miss you too 🥺

Callywally: And?

Me: Well ok have a good tour and hopefully you get your head out of your ass.

Callywally: My Head up my ass what about yours up your own?

Me: uhmmm excuse me. You were the one to promise MY son that you would call him every single day and you would send him a kiss, but no. I know you are on tour and it's hard for you but don't you think you can text me and tell me you can't call or text because your busy? Or are you too famous for us now? Im protecting my son. Every day he cries because you don't call. I've had to deal with fits every day for the past month and a half. It's stressing me out and it's not good for me or my baby. I didn't want it to get to this but when you get back don't talk to me or anyone involved with me. And don't ask me why because I already told you. You hurt Harding so much he trusted you and you were one the few he trusts. Thanks and have a good life.

At this point I was fuming at Calum. I didn't expect for him to be that rude in a text, but he did so I went off. I saw the bubbles going up on the screen indication he was texting so I set my phone down and tried go calm down by rocking Harding back and fourth. He had fallen asleep during my rant to Calum so I decided to take him to bed since he had his pajamas on. Once I got back out to the couch after I put Harding down I had a missed message. I went to the messages and saw it was calums. I pressed on the texting conversation and read his long message.

Callywally: Listen I'm sorry. I'm just so stressed with everything going on. Tour has been crazy and I have had the time to call you guys but I was a coward. First I didn't want it getting out that I was talking to you guys because I didn't want you to go through the hate of my fans. And second I felt bad for barging into your life so quickly that I decided to take a step back. Now I've realized that was a horrible mistake and I feel so bad. I didn't know all of this would happen. I'm truly sorry for what I did to you and Harding. I understand if you don't want to message me back or talk to me ever again but I wanted to say that I'm sorry this all happened and I wish you two the best. I love you guys always remember that.

An/

Dramaaaaa. Ok so today I slapped my sister and didn't mean to hit her so hard but she was ok. Also I ate a lot of food and I feel fatter that I usually feel. I also colored for many hours which led to my back and neck hurting. Ok song of the chapter goes to Hey There Delilah by Plain white Tees

I love that song and you should too. Anyways yea that band I was talking about a few chapters ago they announced their name and all (except for one) of their members. Archie, Luke, and Keddy. Also Archie is mine and Nikkis best friend atm. Love them v much. Their is @_lifelineband_ Ok anyways I hope you are all doing good and I love you tons.

- Emma