My Mistake

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I told my mom to meet me at a gas station. Then I also told her to bring Dallas. She agreed but she also wanted to know where I was.

I told her

"Mom all you need to know is I'm okay and I want my baby boy. I just want to get away from all of this, from my life."

She understood she realized I need the time away from all of the drama. Finally she met me at the gas station and I got Dallas from her.

I told her not to tell anyone that she saw me or that she met with me. After I got Dallas back I strapped him in his car seat and we took off.

"I'm sorry baby boy I know today was stressful. I don't want you to ever have to go through something like that. Just know that mommy will always love you."

When I looked back at him he gave me a little smile and it broke my heart. I realized that I loved him and that he was all I needed.

I didn't need a man or at least for now but I had Dallas and that's all I ever really want. I will always love him because he's my baby boy.

I drove around town I didn't know where to go. I knew that everyone would be looking for me and that made me mad.

Why couldn't they just leave me alone? Why couldn't they just stop trying so hard? Why couldn't they just give me some space?

I finally realized that I was still in my wedding dress with my shoes and my veil. I decided to go to a little store and get a pair of jean shorts and a tank top.

I must've looked crazy in the store but I didn't care. I found a cute black tank top that had white polkadots on it. I also found some Jean shorts.

I paid for them and then went into the bathroom. I then changed into them and I felt much better.

I had brought Dallas in the store with me I figured since I'm here why not get him a toy or something. I got him a little stuffed dog.

I thanked the lady and she gave me a look. It wasn't bad it was sympathetic she must've understood what I was going through.

Once I put Dallas in his car seat again I got behind the wheel of my car and sat there. I started to cry and cry and cry.

I didn't know what to do Chase had left me but he said he still wanted me. Cam was my fiancé yet I didn't know if it would work out.

All of my life decisions I had ever made came rushing back to me. What did I do wrong in my life and what did I do right? What was a mistake and what was not a mistake?

Why did I decide to get married so young and have a kid so young? Actually I didn't plan for any of this I never knew I was going to have a kid at a young age.

I thought I was going to get a job, get engaged, get married and then have a kid. Start a nice family with a cute little house maybe a dog or two, it would've been perfect.

But life's not perfect I know that but why did all these things happen to me? Why at such a young age? Why did I have to grow up so fast?

Now I can't go to parties and clubs with my friends. I can't live life like a normal young adult and now my life will be totally changed forever.

But I guess that's how my life is going to be now changed forever. I don't know when but maybe someday my life will be back on track.

But come to think of it I don't really want my life to be on track I want my life to be adventurous, full of excitement and a surprise every single day.

I don't want my life to be normal like everyone else's. Normal is boring so I don't want to be normal I want to be myself. I want to live life at my own pace and do the things I want to do.

I'm my own person and I have free will. No one can control me. No one will ever tell me what to do because I am free.

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Ok guys so emotional chapter. So thank you to everyone for reading my book I will be starting a sequel soon.

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