I WAS IN A SLUMP, in all honesty, I avoided going to college, I just locked myself away in my room, sleeping away most of the days. I entertained myself by popping pills and drinking. I felt like I was going to go mental, which, even though I knew it was possible I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want to believe that James Cook was making me go mental over the fact that he slept with my mate, we weren't even together, so I hated even thinking about it.
I sat on the edge of my bed, tearing through on off the books I got from college, I tossed the pages onto the ground. I had music playing, I spaced out as I danced around my room, letting pages hit the floor beneath me. It was easy to skip college when you had no parents to nag you for doing so. Even though I knew that my mum, if she was here, wouldn't give two shits about it. I turned around on my heels, seeing someone staring at me, I jumped backward, gasping out loudly, "JJ? What the fuck!" I shouted as my arse hit my bed, "Don't you know how to knock?"
"Oh, sorry... I uh- I haven't seen you around lately, but, I was actually looking for Cook," JJ looked around my room, searching for him, as if he was going to walk around the closet or out of my wardrobe.
I fixed my demeanor, brushing off my shirt, "JJ, I'm upset with Cook at the moment, he's not going to be here."
"Well- we're going out tonight," JJ seemed lost in thought as he spoke to me.
"If he's going to be there, I don't want to go. Unless I'm beyond fucked up."
JJ held his hand out, "I have pills," He presented the packet of pulls to me, "Take a few, I don't mind," He popped the foil, handing me about three of the tiny white pills, "Meet us at the gig?"
I looked down at my hand, taking the pills that he had just placed in my palm, after swallowing them, I looked at him again, "Alright then," I stood up, walking towards JJ, "I know Freds and Cook are fighting right now, but, if you need a friend, I'm here for you, yeah?" I pulled him into a quick hug, he was the first to pull away. He nodded at me before he turned to walk out of my room, leaving me alone once again.
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Even though I didn't really feel like showing up at the gig, I did anyway. I walked into the crowd, just dancing the night away by myself, ignoring the people around me. Things were honestly going great until Cook was bouncing around the crowd, knocking into people, causing some of them to fall over, and he inevitably got himself into a fight. I pushed myself out of the crowd, walking over to Freddie, he was looking at JJ with anger, "What the fuck is going on?" Freddie shouted at him, I watched as JJ pulled out the pills that he gave me prior to the gig, showing them to Freddie, "What? How many?" JJ didn't answer, "How many!"
"Fore... Then another two! Harper had some too," JJ shouted back at Freddie, Freddie looked over towards me, as they shouted I felt myself get dizzy, wobbling in place, he put an arm around me to keep me steady.
"You twat, what does this stuff do?"
"Calms you down and stuff!"
"Right, you see that?" He pointed at Cook, "You see this?" Freddie handed me off to JJ, who awkwardly kept me steady now. Freddie grabbed Cook out of the crowd, ushering us all into the back hall near the restrooms, I slid down the wall, sitting on the ground across from where Cook sat down. Cook was laughing, he was just as dazy as I was, possibly more.
JJ shuffled awkwardly in his place, "I'm sorry, he pissed me off," He told Freddie once he was calmed down, Freddie let out a long sigh.
"How?" Freddie asked JJ, his voice showing how over the situation he was, how over the mess, the fights. Most importantly, he was over Cook.
