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THOMAS WAS PROMOTING A CLUB TONIGHT, I decided to join Freddie while I was high off of whatever I had taken prior to meeting him at the club. It has been a while since the Cook ordeal and after we got home, Effy disappeared, just telling Freddie she was going to go have a bath. That was two months ago. Cook did what he did best, he messed up again, he promised he wouldn't do what he used to and he just turned and did it again. I got upset, but I still tried to understand him and why he did what he did. I could only understand that he was scared to fall completely in love, I assumed I might of been the issue as well. So, to keep myself occupied, I hung around Freddie, we were in the same boat, heartbroken by the people we love. He understood everything I was going through.

When I arrived to the club, I started to dance, trying to have a good time. But, then someone fell from the overhanding balcony that sat above us, as I watched it happened, I let out a shocked gasp, covering my mouth with shaky hands. Freddie quickly blocked my view from the mangled girl on the ground, "Is she dead? She is, isn't she?" I managed to choke out some words, continuing to avoid looking at the girl. Freddie didn't reply, so I assumed it was a yes. He took my arm, pulling me to the side, pushing through the crowd of freaked out people as the area started to clear out. My eyes scanned the crowd for Cook, I knew he was somewhere amongst the crowd, he never missed a party, no matter the situation, I wanted to run to him to comfort. My eyes finally found him, then my heart sank, watching as he nodded at a girl, the two of them leaving together. I felt numb again, I couldn't tell if it was the drugs, but I was hurt again, I was feeling the regret of even looking for him. "Freds," I said as I followed Freddie out of the club, he turned his head to look at me, raising a brow, waiting for what I had to say next, "Come home with me, yeah?" I asked, biting down gently on my bottom lip. It has been a while since the two of us had actually shagged, we were just trying to avoid it, however at the moment, I no longer wanted to avoid it, I wanted to feel something other than the high I was experiencing. 

"Huh?" He was taken aback, surprised that I would even ask him that. Before I could say anything, he started to nod, "Yeah, of course."

Part of me knew that he had gotten a glimpse of Cook leaving with the girl, he knew that I was just tired of it, I was tired of everything. I just waited around waiting for Cook to get his shit together, especially after hearing him admit that he loved me. I didn't go around shagging randoms, the only person I ever wanted to be with was Cook, Freddie knew that. But, he also knew that the more that I waited around for him, letting him walk all over me, it was slowly killing me inside. And in reality, he was tired of Effy doing the same thing to him. I think all this pressure was just building up and we were ignoring the fact that we could just be shagging one another, no strings attached. 

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We walked into my house, I led Freddie up the stairs, watching the door come to a close behind us, I turned around to face him before we got too far up the stairs, "Lock it," I told him, a finger on his chest, he gave me a nod, turning his body around, going down the stairs once again, clicking the lock. Then we quickly turned to go upstairs, going into my room, I hit the door closed with my heel, smirking as he watched me walk across the room, crawling onto the bed. It was then that we both quickly started to undress, throwing our clothes around the room.