Feelings (A Cameron Dallas & Shawn Mendes Fanfiction)

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-Shawn's POV-
I've made my decision I just need this fucking pain to go away.
"Shawn Don't you don't have to just because Cam is a dick doesn't think you have to do this." Carter says sadly
"But I want to and I am I not gonna sit here in pain when there's a place for me calling my name." I reply
"Shawn please don't we can do something else" He says even more sad. "Carter, I'm doing this there's nothing you can say to change that I love you you're one of my beat friends, please accept my decision" I say tears slowly running down my cheek it hurts seeing him so sad but I have to do this "Ok but Shawn I'll really miss you" he says as one tear falls down his cheek. I quickly wipe it away with my thumb "Carter I'm only moving back to Canada not dieing" I say smiling he chuckles a bit. ( A/N But Cam doesn't know he's just moving? You guys thought he was gonna commit suicide didn't ya, lol got ya)
"But we barely see each other now if you go back we will see each other even less" he says not crying anymore. "I'll make sure we see each other more I promise." He smiles and I bring him into a big hug, we stay there for a while wrapped in each other's arms it feels good not as good as Cam's but I'll never feel his arms wrapped around me again. I'm not one of those pathetic people that get cheated on and gets back with that person I do not take cheating. Cam broke all my trust he can't ever get it back.
- Cam's POV-
I was laying in bed with Nash, he was asleep. Then I saw Shawn's tweet, I jumped out the bed and ran to the bathroom and puked so much it hurts. I finally stop and I'm laying in the bathroom with my head on the toilet, ew this is fucking gross I thought to myself. Nash comes in the bathroom with a glass of water and pill, good because I have a massive head ache now, he hands it to me and I gulp it down quickly and take the pills my throat still burns. After I finish I get up slowly not to give myself a head rush I brush my teethe and rinse it with mouthwash. "Cam I think you have the flu" Nash said in a caring tone "No Nash, i-it's S-Shawn I-I think he's g-gonna commit s-suicide" I say stuttering and whispering the last part. I'm now crying silently tears falling down my face "No h-he wouldn't" Nash says in a scared voice "Would he? Oh my go this is all my fault" he says tears start to fall down his cheek to. "No, it's my fault I should have told in the first place" I say in between sobs. " I need to go Nash I'll be back later, I'm calling Hayes over I don't want you alone right now." He just nods I get in the phone and dial Hayes "hey Hayes" "Hey Cam" "So Hayes I new you to come over here and chill with Nash I have to do something and I don't want him alone right now." "Ok I'll be over in about 5" "ok bye" I say and hang up. "Nash Hayes is on his way over here I'm gonna head out, love you bro and it's not your fault." "Thanks love you to" he replies with no emotion, I can tell he's really upset about this I fell bad I wish he would believe me when I say it's not his fault.
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Where is Shawn I think to myself as I'm sitting in my car by a park. Carter picked him up so he's probably with him .I take out my phone an open twitter, @camerondallas: hey does anyone know what hotel Carter is staying at?" I tweet it without tagging him. I quickly get replies I call one of the hotels listed and ask if there is anyone staying there by the name I Carter Reynolds "Yes it is he's in room 230 floor 2 he checks out tomorrow." She says through the phone "ok thanks so much" I say as I drive to the hotel.
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I go to the front desk of the hotel " hey can I have a key to Carter Reynolds room, I'm doing a surprise for him it's his birthday." I lie if I knock they probably won't answer "yes " she says happily I thank her and walk to their room I open up the door quietly and walk in. "Shawn" I whisper no answer I look around the hotel room and see someone's laying in the bed I walk closer to see who it is. I gasp and cover my mouth when I see Shawn wrapped in Carter's arms and Carter wrappers in his, with out any shirts. What the fuck I say to myself it's been 2 days and he's fucking Carter? I get so mad. "SHAWN!" I yell they both shoot up waking up from there sleep. Shawn looks at me and Carter turns around and looks at me with a confused face. I ball my hand up in a fist and cock my hand ready hit Carter in the face, but I stop myself don't stoop down to their level I tell myself. "Shawn it's been 2 days and here you are in bed with Carter ?!" I yell they look at me surprised. "You are fucking unbelievable I swear to god Shawn fuck you, I can't believe you would fuck him after only two days." I say not yelling but on the verge of crying, i hold in the tears but one fall out. "2 days you didn't even break up with me you cheated on me!" He snapped back. "I didn't--" I start but he cuts me off "don't you dare try to lie" he says angrily "forget it I'm done trying have fun with each other". I say and turn and walk to the door "Cam!" Shawn shout from the bed I keep walking . "Cam wait!" He yells again. Can he make up his mind does he want me or not. If he really wanted me he would have got up out the bed and came for me, he's probably still naked from getting fucked by Carter this makes me even more mad I turn around and say in a calm voice. "I came over here to do something not our personal problems." I say sighing "Shawn don't do it don't end your life because were broken up" I say with a sad face. He looks at me confused look "what are you talking about I would never end my life over you." He says in a disgusted tone, that hurt a lot. "I saw your tweet!" I say still sad a couple tears escaping my eyes. "Cam I'm not killing myself...." "Then what was that about?" I ask "I'm moving back to Canada" he says looking down my heart breaks into a thousand pieces. "No you can't why?" I asked panicked " because I want to and I am, and I didn't have sex with Carter he was comforting me because of what happened, and we're not getting back together we're bad for each other your bad for me your toxic" he says not making eye contact. "You didn't mean that" I say "I do" he says looking down. "Look me in the eye and tell me that's what you want" I say tears falling down my cheek I can't hold them. He looks up " I don't want to be with you Cam I think you should leave" he says I just turn around and walk out the door sobbing.
what will happen with Shawn and cam will they get back together Shawn seemed pretty serious about leaving and not wanting cam.