Feelings (A Cameron Dallas & Shawn Mendes Fanfiction)

The worst feeling

-Cam's POV -
I pushed the razor into my skin I feel something strange, I don't know what it is but I like it. It's like a release I feel some of my pain slowly fade away, not a lot but a little to let me feel some relief. I never thought I would be doing this bit here I am cutting my wrist over and over. It feels so good I didn't know I was crying until I felt tears pouring down my cheeks. I couldn't hold it in I was full on sobbing. The door busted open. "Cam are you ok?" Nash said looking worried and scared, then he looked at my wrist. "Cam what the hell are you doing?!" He yelled I didn't say anything I just kept sobbing, he came up to me an pulled me into a hug. We sat there for a while then he stood up pulling me up by my hand. "Take off your clothes" he said running a bath I did as I was told standing there I'm my boxers, he turned off the water and looked at me. His eyes traveled all over my body then down to my boxers. I blush "uhm I'm going to the kitchen to make you some soup call me up here when your done so we can talk." I just nod he walks out the bathroom and I take oft boxers and get in the bath.
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Me and Nash talked about it he made me feel a lot better but I'm still missing a huge part of me. Shawn. Shawn makes me whole without him I'm lost an I don't know what to do. I'm up in my bedroom and I'm feeling the worst feeling. Alone. I need Shawn I'm in my bed in his usual spot which has been empty for almost a week now. I can't live like this I need to get him back he needs to listen to me I'll make him listen. Tomorrow is my last chance tomorrow is the day he's leaving.
-Shawn's POV -
Laying on the couch in Carter's hotel room, watching the Titanic. I wish someone would love me that much that they would give there own life to save mine, they would put my life in front of their own. That's what I would do for Cam if he didn't cheat on me. I slowly drifted to sleep.
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Walking through the airport with Carter. We stop at my flight door "I'm gonna miss you Shawn" Carter says pulling me into a bond crushing hug. "I'll miss you too cartaah" I say laughing "uhm cartaah I can't breathe" I say he pulls away and blushes "sorry" he says I laugh "it's fine and thanks again for letting me stay with you thanks for stating home and listening to me, holding me when I was crying, for everything." "It's fine Shawn I would do it all again in a heart beat to help a friend." I hug h one more time "thanks" I say "bye" i say walking towards my flight "bye" he says sadly. I run back to him tears in my eyes "cartaah you are my best friend and we will see each other soon I promise" I say I can here him sobbing quietly "ok Shawn bye" he says wiping his tears smiling "sorry for that bitch moment" he says laughing "it's fine that's all I've been doing this last week." "Bye Shawn" "bye cartaah" I say as I walk into the corridor. I find my seat and sit in it no one is next to me and I hope it stays that way I don't want to talk to anyone or pretend like I'm alright right now I'll have to do a lot of that when I get home. " hello passengers we are having a slight delay on this flight you can get off the plane or stay on or delay will be about in hour" a flight attendant says over the intercom. I get up and leave the plane to get some snacks. When I walk out the corridor I remember how happy I was getting off the plane an arriving in L.A who knew things could go so wrong in that short amount of time. Good thing I didn't go to that airport or I would probably be balling my eyes out.
-Cam's POV -
I walked into the airport and went to the desk. "where is the flight for Toronto Canada at 2:00" I asked worried I might be to late. "Uhm sir sorry but there is no flight for Toronto at 2:00" "what my friend is going back to Canada today and his flights is at 2:00" I say well almost yell. "Sir I'm going to need you to calm do--" I cut her off "don't tell me to calm down my friend came to L.A from this airport so he's leaving from this airport." I yell she picks up her phone "security is needed at the front desk " no please ok sorry I just really don't want to miss my friend I say begging." "Never mind" she says into the phone and hangs up. "My friend must have went to a different airport when is your next flight to Toronto Canada?" I ask pulling out my wallet "uhm the next flight leaves at 3:00" she says "can I have a first class ticket please?" We are gonna need your passport sir" he says looking at me seeing I have nothing "ok reserve that seat for me please I'll he back with everything in about 45 minutes." I say walking away "sir I need your credit card." She yells I run back and give it to her. She finishes the purchase and hands me back my card. I take it and run out the airport.
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I'm in my room packing my suitcase I check the time I have 15 mins left I reach into my nightstand and grab my passport a pen and a price of paper I write Nash a letter saying that I was leaving to Toronto and I'll be back.
I get I'm my car and speed to the airport I only have 7 minutes left. I pull into the parking lot pay the toll and run to the airport I get my ticket and get on the plane.
-Shawn's POV -
They said the plane would be delayed an hour but we've been here for 2 hours. I'm getting pissed I just want to sleep. I walk onto the plane and go to my seat expecting no one to be there but everything else I want gets fucked so why did I think this wouldn't I take my seat without saying anything to the boy about my age sitting next to me. He looks about 16 white his hair is gelled in the front like Nash's god I hate Nash and this guy is reminding me of Nash I get up and go to the bathroom. I look in the mirror and splash my face with water I walk out the bathroom and take my seat. "Hello sorry for the delay but since we have had this delay all of you will get 50% off your next flight with us" everyone one on the plane starts cheering and clapping and I just sat there getting annoyed. "Can we just leave?" I say out loud on accident everyone turns and looks at me I blush and look at my phone. "Well someones angry." They guy next to says I look at him "I just want to get out of L.A already" I say "why L.A is amazing he says "not when a guy breaks your heart" I say looking down he doesn't say anything I probably made him feel uncomfortable by being gay or bi I just realized I don't have myself figured out yet. "Wow that sucks what happened" he says we sit there and talk the whole flight we laugh I cried a little but then he made me laugh some more. I like this guy and he's cute, although I'm not ready for a relationship I am ready for a knew friend. I get his number hi name is Shane we get off the plane and say our goodbyes. "See you around Shane" "bye Shawn" he says then we split up. I get my bags and catch a cab home, I didn't tell my mom I was coming today so it will be a surprise. I walk up the steps to my house and walk in the door. I walk into the kitchen and no ones here I look in the garage and there's no car, no ones home. I walk up the stairs and open my bedroom door. I stare in horror "What the hell are you doing here?" I yell "Shawn we need to talk" Cameron Replies
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