Dream Amour.

Unforeseen

'Why don't you join the 'X-squad? It's an entertainment group named extraordinary squad, and that would fit into your personality', said my senior casually. I looked at him for two seconds. Inside I knew it was all facade.
How do I sign up? , I questioned.
'Consider it's done.', he replied with a fist bump.

I read the notice board.
'Dance rehearsal will be held from tomorrow. New members of X- Squad are invited to join the group. Get ready to have a fun evening.'
I wouldn't miss a chance to skip the introductory meetup. I watched them dance and I couldn't stop myself.

We practiced for two weeks. I was confident that I would perform with the same enthusiasm. When the final day arrived, we were dancing on the stage. I was scared and anxious while I was standing on the stage. I never believed that I could dance but eventually I was giving my best and I enjoyed it.

I made a lot of new friends. We had to assemble in the practice room for weekly visits and other activities that was being held in college. Passion can drive you crazy. Any upcoming event and I knew I would participate. It was thrilling to be part of the group. It felt like a small family where we bonded as friends.

We would religiously meet in the cafeteria early in the morning. There was a table that was booked by our friends. We spoke out loud, laughed and at the moment we felt alive.

'Notice for Summer camp form filling. Please sign up. Seats are limited and you better not miss your chance.'
I was craving to be a part of it. I love camps. It makes me drive my potential best and I love to see myself explore new boundaries.

'Isabella can I have a minute', said a familiar voice.
'Ohh hie, how's everything going?', I responded.
'Well, good. I wanted to talk,' he replied in a restless tone.
'Yes, I am listening, I replied with a engaged look.

It turned out to be more than a talk. I was left speechless.

In the middle of the hallway, he was standing with another mutual friend of ours, and to my surprise he knelt to the ground. Yes, out of nowhere he knelt to the ground....
I was blankly starting at him. I wished he never spilled the beans.
'Will you be my girl, Ms. Isabella', he uttered courageously.
I immediately replied, 'We have just met. This is so sudden. I am so sorry.'
He was sweet enough to smile and say 'Its okay. I should be sorry.'

I was greeted with loud cheers the next day at our meeting spot.
'Hie, we heard you got a proposal', screamed everyone. During the fun and teasing moments I just nodded trying to ignore. I was expecting this to pass by in few weeks.

I met Harris Addison during our practice. He was excessively upbeat. He ended up coaching our team for rehearsals. Overall, it was a great experience. A memorable one indeed.

The repercussion of the proposal freaked me out. It became regular and I was tired of hearing 'aww, you got a new boy drooling over you huh' , 'you know he is a good boy and now look at his face, he is so sad.' , 'you should go for him, 'he does like you a lot' et cetera.

I wasn't okay being the subject of discussion everyday. I didn't want to go through series of self talk making myself believe what that I did wrong. I knew I didn't. It was a casual topic but it wasn't made simple. It was being brought up everyday all over again and made complicated.

Surviving college takes hard work. The college schedule can seem crazy at times. Doing projects until midnight is not exceptionally glamorous or easy, but I love what I do and all that I learn.

The best and worst part of college is that you are able to choose everything: your classes, extracurricular activities, friends, etc. A great deal of responsibility and time management is needed, but with a bit of planning and coffee you can be very successful.

The awaited list was finally out. I saw all unfamiliar names and out of which were ' Harris Addison' followed by 'Isabella Forbes.'

'Ballroom dance, bonfire, games, beautiful scenery...make friends. I wouldn't miss all the fun for him', I expressed sadly.
'Bella you aren't going', Jamie remarked.
'Let her go, she is lucky to be in the list, I think she should go', Valerie responded.
'I would be nincompoop to do that', I replied, more to myself.
I need to think about it. Thanks guys.

I was doomed. I didn't wanted to face Harris. Whenever I looked at him I just had this thought in my mind, 'Oh, I need to be careful because he has feelings for me.' I needed to be cautious with my words. I needed to be reserved and aloof. I didn't wanted any more rumours being circulated.

It wasn't his fault. He was being honest. We are all getting to be familiar of how to behave and react to situations. We needed experiences to grow. The outer world seems so beautiful but slowly the harsh realities were creeping in.

For one year I can say that Harris Addison was the person I wanted to avoid completely. I missed out the most adventurous camp of my life. Gradually, he realised that he was wrong. It wasn't necessary to express his current grief with every new stranger he met.

We made amends after a year. We went out, created new memories, met publicly in the cafeteria and other spots in college. We communicated without any fear of being judged.

It was growth to let go of things that create negativity with a positive outlook. It wasn't easy. It's never easy to disconnect and connect with people. In any relationship after a dead end we loose hope. We don't strive harder to build with the already created damage.

I am glad I thought of second chances, about a fresh start with a bond of friendship. I would have missed out on all the fun and crazy parts. This crazy pants has a lot more than humour, that is perfectly hidden in his smile. Everyone has a series of hidden truth.

And as we mature, we learn how to grow spiritually and mentally. We learn to forgive and leave behind. We choose what we want to take us when we move to the next phrase of our lives.

Isabella Forbes chooses positive energy over years of stored loath and frustration. She focuses on changing into the best version of herself.