Dream Amour.

Yours faithfully,

You were walking right out of the cafeteria with your group of friends. I quickly headed towards the cafe and grabbed my meals for recess and as I stepped out I saw you standing afar. Our eyes met. We didn't say a word.

You looked at me so dearly and I was lost in your eyes. You came towards me and my eyes followed you walk past me. It was this strange feeling that I experienced whenever you're around me. I knew I was overthinking but I saw the spark and I longed for it to ignite.

'Are you free after classes. Will you meet me ?', Johnson asked.
'I am free tomorrow, we will meet.', I faintly responded.
'As you wish ma'am', he said and walked away.

I entered the activity area.
'Hey Arr.... I mean Johnson, I am so bad with names, I added.
'Yes gorgeous,' he responded.
'Let's meet today!', I was loud enough for him to hear me.
'Okay.. see ya. I will wait for downstairs'.
Bye! I responded.

I saw him look straight to my eyes. He stared at me without a blink. I didn't react. I cared not to notice.

I was always attracted to Aaron. I just kept denying that to myself. I was sitting in my classroom, it was a boring lecture. I looked outside and I saw him practice. The whole football team was present, there were so many handsome boys in the field. My eyes were glued at him. He wore a sky blue sleeveless t-shirt. He was very focused and there wasn't a minute his eyes were off the field. Technically so was mine.

The bell rang and the professor told me, 'Ms. Forbes, if you want to look outside during classes, I would request you to stay in the field. I am highly disturbed by your inattentive behaviour.' The whole class started laughing. It was an embarrassing moment and I quickly apologized.

I went towards the field. I stopped by and watched him finish his practice match. He was all sweaty and to be honest I wanted to kiss him. I literally wanted to grab him and kiss him.

Aaron walked towards me.
'Hie, what's up? You seem pretty distracted. I thought you came here to meet someone.'
I smiled, it was a bright smile.
'Yes, I am still waiting. He will be there in a while', I responded.
'Hmmm, okay. I need to go bye.' he answered and left.

I spotted Johnson and left the campus. We walked it back home. It was always fun to be around him.

I kept meeting Aaron on several occasions. It started to become more often. It seemed like destiny was drawing us closer. To be honest, I purposely used to roam near his practice area. We used to sit near the green benches and talk.

It was few months since we last spoke. Memories kept piling up of watching him around me from distant. I didn't ever start a conversation and 'he' seemed to fade away with time.

I was late for class. I was sitting and reading newspaper in the cafeteria. I saw him and didn't look up. I was drinking coffee and he sat.
'Hie, what are you reading?', Aaron asked.
(Oh my my, I couldn't believe he would be sitting there. I was delighted and felt extremely happy.)
'Well, newspaper', I answered.
'I can see that', he answered.
I realised it was a pretty dumb answer.
'So what are you doing here?', I asked in a flat tone.
'Sitting with you, don't you have classes. What are you doing here? ', he asked.
'Noo, I am just late for class', I replied.

We started talking. He narrated me about his whole day. He prolonged by talking about few incidents that took place in college. It felt like warming up sessions before he would burst up with the real question.

'So, um, how is Harris? Does he still like you', he questioned.
'No, I don't talk to him anymore', I answered politely.
'Are you seeing someone'?, he finally asked.
'No', I answered with a smile.

I was sure it was going to be a fling and I tried my best to withhold myself. At the end I knew I had nothing to lose, I knew I shouldn't but I just didn't listen to myself.

I was drawn more closer to him. It was tough to pretend like you didn't want to know more about the one you started growing feelings for and you were completely satisfied about this new chemical reactions that you were dealing with. I knew I wasn't thinking about how to avoid being around him. I was so comfortable with his presence. I started to believe that I deserved to be loved. I could be loved. I wanted to feel the warmth of his hug, I wanted to see myself smiling when I am around him, I wanted to know everything about him. I wanted to walk beside him while he tells me stories, I wanted him to hold my hands when a boy walks past me, I wanted to feel safe. I wanted to feel alive again. I wanted to be happy.

He invited me to his birthday party. We met with a group of mutual friends. I was never expecting myself to indulge into such group parties. It was my first dance with him.We looked at each other and in that moment I knew I belonged there. I was nervous. We danced holding each other, I felt his hands. He touched my soul. It was like two opposite pieces trying to collide. I was aware of the damage but I still allowed myself to burn. I wanted to feel love, I didn't care about the circumstances.

I felt warmth when he was just an inch apart from me. I felt a connection. When he looks at me I want to look away, I want to run. I want to escape from feeling the rush that happens inside me but I am tempted to stop and feel his presence.

We try to hide our feelings but we forgot that our eyes speak. Every single day, I find something about you and it's like I seek for adventure in your soul. I know I need to step aside before I am completely burnt. I know I need to look around, but when you're infront, there's just you. Just you.

You make me smile brighter. Our paths may not cross in future, but in this present moment I know that I am happy.