Where he Stands! ✔

Chapter 35

I will Die!!
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Han Shin lee was listening to Her Royal Highness with a completely grim,emotionless face and she continued

8 months ago our relationship took a complete U turn ,we started having short conversations,It was abstruse for me to understand what was exactly going on but I started having hopes that was pernicious for me.

One day when he was too drunk he mistook me with you and spent night with me making love to you ,I stupid thought he loves me and accepted the fate,I loved him and believed that love is important to have any kind of physical relationship and that's why I decided to let him do whatever he wants,I thought finally after almost two years of marriage he had accepted me but it was just an illusion,When I was still asleep he left that room in the morning and after that night he again distant himself from me.I delimited our relationship too because everything was too confusing and embarassing for me to handle,Delimitation was not something new in our so called marriage relationship but unlike 1st time ,this time it was from both sides.

From next day I was again that gold digger Han Shin lee,My life again became all about expensive clothes and parties.

And one day when I didn't return palace because I was too drunk to drive ,a doctor whom I met in a pub offered me to drop me to my home and when I vomited feeling nauseated in front of him,he checked me up informed me that I was pregnant.

All the feelings I had in my heart unleashed that time,overthinking at that time was making me depressed,pregnancy created mayhem I wanted to just ran away with my unborn child to a place where nobody could find us,paranoid covered my entire thinking capacity.

That fear abetted me to just left the palace, having this thought in my mind I returned to palace but there he insulted me by calling me a street whore and alleged that I have an extramarital affair with that doctor,he threw me out of the palace and burst my bubble saying that he regrets that he spent night with a street whore like me mistaking me with his first wife ,that was the first time I got to know I was his second wife .I left that place and stayed with my father for somedays after that incident.

My life for few days was on track but one day Head maid Wan visited me at my father's house.I thought my absence in the palace was trivial but Head maid wan's face was saying otherwise.

We negotiated for almost two hours that day ,She told me that His Royal Highness was unhappy from my absence in the palace and he truly care for me but his love was is and always be Han Shin lee his 1st wife and that was the 1st time I got to know about you.Han Shin lee is the only one who is pervasive in his entire soul.Even when I was shocked as well as hurt I felt deeply pertinent.

After knowing everything about his past and his present I felt unencumbered.I wanted to restart a new life with him a life without your existence may be at that time I was too selfish but it was just a hunger of a long desired unfulfilled wish ,to be loved by someone.

There were no resentments from you, just a feeling of freedom from gloom and I returned to the palace with new hope ,that I would change him,make a place in his heart for myself  that was already preoccupied by you,I shifted in his room,we started sleeping on same bed but even when we used to live in same room and sleep  on same bed we were so far.He was always occupied in his own thoughts. He was not like that before when I married him or before my exit from the palace,He was a talented business  man,a successful Prime Minister but at that time his behaviour started suddenly changing, as if he was in his own world, I never revealed to him that I was pregnant. Some days passed I entered in my trimester, He was busy in some political issues as his government was going to collapse, there were some crisis going on and some media houses claimed that he had some mental disorder and he's losing his memories I got to know about this only through news channels.

Then I tried to talk to him but he got angry and told me to stay away from his matters but I didn't want to let him suffer alone I talked to Chief Park and told him that even when I don't share any kind of loving relationship with my husband, He's still my husband and anything related to him is related to me and will impact me so better to not hide anything from me even when his royal highness doesn't want to share anything with me ,At 1st he hesitated but later somehow I convinced him and he told me that

HRH is suffering from brain tumour that is at second stage and It is impacting his memories that's why he is losing it slowly.He told me that wanted  him to go abroad to get right treatment but His Royal Highness  doesn't wanna go as if he is unwilling to live anymore and he want to meet Han Shin lee for the last time before he dies,He even made his will and has given me 45% of his property to me ,10% to Ms Wan and and..........

45% to his ex wife who's you.

But at that time I felt like a deep noise has jammed my ear and I got totally lost in my own thought about His Royal Highness,  the man I loved, my husband ,father of my unborn child is suffering from tumour and there's little chance of survival,his life is just hanging on a thin thread, I don't remember what happened after that, when I sat in car and returned to palace, I felt like I was a corpse. I slept early that day and Don't know when he returned. At mid night suddenly I woke up, I had a nightmare and when I turned back I saw him covered in sweat murmuring something, he had his both hands on his head he was screaming in pain He was taking deep breathes I got afraid He was murmuring , "I want to die" I want to  die" He opened his eyes and pushed me with so much force as if he doesn't want to see my face ,at that time he was taking your name again and again and I screamed Head Maid wan, wan,she came with some more maids ,she called driver and we reached hospital, Whole night he was in ICU and early in the morning Doctors declared him in coma .From that day he never responded Its been almost 6 months since I last talked to him or last time he opened his eyes ,Doctors are saying there's very rare chace of his recovery but ......

But ???asked Han shin lee who was listening HRH till now with her unreadable expression ......

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I know he will recover He will recover if you return, You are my last hope please I just want you to return in his life,I want him to breathe,I can't see him dying. .......I will die....Replied Her Royal Highness.

You will come right?She asked...

What...?...Han Shin Lee was shocked......