Where he Stands! ✔

Chapter 28

What do you know about me ?
Nothing right ,,
Then how can you say something like this about me??
You doesn't know what i have sacrificed in my life for his royal highness!!!
You know what,I don't like talking about my stuffs with anyone but
Since you are blaming me i will tell you everything!!Head maid wan told her with heavily breathing and tears in her eyes.

I was only 15, when i entered this palace with my mother who was appointed as a maid here.

Late King Seung sung suk was also 15 at that time .
I wanted to study, so his mother gave permission to my mother to send me to a school and i started studying.

one day i was cleaning the floor of corridor when i listened what he was studying. ...
I helped him in a problem and next day when he was praised for that by his teacher, he asked me to be his friend and we become friend.
Then he started asking me more often for any difficulties in his homework.
My mother always warned me to not interact with him ,he was a royal and i was just a maid,but i was unable to deny him...this activity was continued for 2 yrs when he suddenly proposed me one day.
I was happy i loved him too and without thinking twice i nobbed as reply.
One day his father saw me walking with him in garden and he got so much angry that he send him abroad for studies same day.

He forcefully married me to his Driver who was 24 at that time when i was 17....

My husband was a very kind person he was well aware about my past and my affair with king but he still loved me.I used to always curse him but he alway pampered me.His salary was not that much but he used to buy whatever i liked.In next five years i developed affection for him and qhen i started loving him i didn't realise.

It was 6th year of our marriage when late king returned from abroad after completing his higher studies.

When he came back ,he was a completely different person and that was the 1st time when i saw hatred for me in his eyes.

I felt bad but still my husband was with me.

After 4 month king married late Queen shin yeon hye and she entered this palace .

It was 17th August when His father ,mother and my husband died in a car accident while retaining from an event.

My world was shattered, i felt like someone snatched my reason for living and i fainted,next day i got to know that was 3 months pregnant.

But i soon realised that not only my world crumbled but king's world was also crumbling.

I witnessed several fights between king and queen from the 1st day of their marriage, i don't blame Queen but i blame this royal society for forcing someone in a loveless relationship .

Queen was in love with someone else and king was still trying hard to get her affection for making me jealous.

That woman was a complete heartless person ,A rich brat who can do anything for her own happiness.

I still remember her face when she got to know that she was pregnant. She tried several attempts to kill the child in her womb but failed because god has giften that child, life in his fate.

I also gave birth to a son and she also gave birth to a son.I was his royal highness's nanny.I loved that child ,his dark black eyes ,pink lips , chubby chicks i loved him so much.

But she hated her child so much that she never touched her son and whenever she touched ,she touched him just for jerking him,beating him ,cursing him.

He was 6 months old ,mine was 10 months old,My son was suffering from high fever but still i made him drink packed milk because i have to feed his royal highness. I left my son burning in fever for feeding his royal highness just because his mother was unwilling to even touch him.

I wished that if his mother has fed him that day then my son would be present with me here because my son died that day due to my carelessness .I cried ,cried & cried but i can never forgive her and myself.

But still that woman scolded her son whenever he begged for her love and it was only because of her behaviour king send him abroad.

I know i am wrong for hiding a mother's letter from her son and i know giving him that letter means he will forgive his mother but that woman doesn't deserve forgiveness.

That woman because of her i lost my child ,his royal highness lost his childhood ,he weeped in darkness.How can a single piece of paper wipe out her evil deeds?

Listening to head maid wan , when her royal highness started crying she didn't notice, she just touched Head maid wan's shoulder and told her to not cry and left.

She was in short of words.

That day her royal highness learned to never blame a person if you know nothing about their life's past situation.

She wrote in her diary :---

Life

It is strange, this world ,billions of people present here, each one has his/her own story,own struggle. We are no one to blame anyone.It is easy to curse someone, hate someone,scold someone but love has always been difficult.
How deep a love can be?

Can it prevent a mother from loving her child?
Can it happen again?
Can someone really want to make that person jealous whom he love?

I don't know answers but I wanna know.

I don't know why i am crying but my heart is hurting...........

Love is really strange,

For some peoples it's just a feeling but for some other peoples it is a reason to spend his/her life.

------Han Shin Lee