The Thoughts of a Madman

Entry 2.

Relationships come and go and the worst part is that you have no control if they impact you as a person or not.
As a good rule of thumb, be careful who you form relationships with, cause they will last a lifetime in your head.
I wonder how many regret meeting me?
How many despise me?
Is anyone generally happy they met me?
Does someone not regret meeting me?
I do not know, not shall I ever
I sometimes wish I could fall in into the peaceful, quiet abyss. Life would be better at least, it wouldn't be so painful.
I wonder how I will die sometimes, probably alone in some random place.
But that's just me, who knows, I met get lucky and actually marry someone who accepted me as me.
Why is life so complicated most days.
Why does she still cross my mind when she hates me so much, would she celebrate my death? I wouldn't blame her.
I will continue to live my life for my family, for those who are so caring and loving for me, I don't deserve them and will do everything I can to make their lives easier

Again for whoever may be reading this, cherish your life, for there are those who would cherish it for you if not today, then someday they will, you just got to find them, keep fighting till then