Just thoughts

January 22 2017

I forgot this existed, and to be honest, I don't really care about it anymore, it might be too sudden, but this just feel out of place, I'm not a psychologist anyway, there's nothing I can do.
Maybe I should just write when I feel like it.

If you were wondering, yes, my 12 year party went straight to hell, said stupid things and messed it up, never gonna invite those people again. I mean, I understand it was all my fault, forgetting about that girl and then calling her a ghost behind her back didn't give my... Visits a good impression of myself, but we all say stupid things now and then, right?

Dammit, just dammit, why did I said that? Ari didn't do any better to my terrible guilt.
"Yeah, that did not sound good."
She said after I said the exact thing, just making me feel even more terrible.
And what came later was no good either.

After giving them food, we all went to the cinema to watch a movie, no big deal.

But it was damn great. Sarcasm intended.

They didn't stop leaving and getting away from we were, we first went to a store, a big, big store and I think right after mom said "please stay close" they all scrambled, hoping I chased them and load them back.
Looking back, maybe I should've hoped they get lost. It made me really angry, but tried not to show it, didn't want to make a worse reputation for myself.

But oh damn, when we got to the movies, daamn.

They didn't stop talking, laughing, jumping on their seats, screaming. There was literally a family right behind us, and all of that is not even an exaggeration.

I told them to keep quiet, to stop acting like toddlers, but they didn't give a damn, I felt so bad for that family...

And Ari. Ari was the Mastermind on all of the things, all of the chasing, all of the loud stuff. I couldn't believe she didn't help me at anything. It was frustrating.
Sigh, whatever, past is past, now an asshole is part of our little girl group, her name is Kim, and her face looks like the face of a girl without a fucking future. But oh well.