I was back at school. Only two weeks to go. " Hey. " Chance met me in the parking lot. "Hi. I'm a bit nervous. " I honestly said. "Don't be. " He said and suddenly kissed me. I kissed him back trying to not think about Jarrod. "don't you have the prick first period?" Chance asked as we walked inside. "Yea. " I laughed stressful. These are gonna be the longest 2 weeks.
"Welcome back Laela. " Jarrod said as I walked in. There were 4 other students at the moment. I sat in the back. "Hey. You forgot this in my car. " Chance walked in. He came to me setting my phone down and suddenly be kissed me. My hands went to his jaw and he slowly pulled away. "See ya babe. " He smiled walking backwards a few steps before turning and leaving out. I sat back in my seat shaking my head.
"Please wait a minute after class. " Jarrod said and a few seconds the bell rung. I stood up and grabbed my stuff. "What do you want?" I asked going to his locker. "How are you?" He asked lightly. "Dead. " I awkwardly said. "Laela.." he sighed. "No! I'm done. I'm tired of pretending I don't care! Yes I love you but you hurt me and, and you make me hate myself. " I say as real tears fell that was when I realized I hit the core. "I hate myself....." I say more calmly to myself. My mouth laid gap. I actually felt that. "Laela. Don't say that. " Jarrod stood up. "No. Stay away." I dodged him walking out.
I was in the bathroom crying. My face was wet and hot. I sighed falling against the wall. "Hey are you okay?" A girl walked in. "Yea. " I wiped my eyes. "Here. " She held somethig in her hand. I held my hand out and she dropped some things into it. It was pills. "These won't make you feel anything. " The weird girl smiled and walked back out. I stared at the small circular pills feeling sick. I took them not caring.
I seam to float to classes subconsciously. It's like I was a robot. "Hey. " Jarrod sat by me at lunch. I was by myself. "Jarrod. You're making us suspicious. " I said and my hands begun trembling. "I told you I don't give a fuck. " He shrugged. "Hello mr. Garrett. Welcome back. " Amanda sat with us. She looked skinny again. It made me self conscious about myself. "Hi. " Jarrod said. "Did I interupt something important." she asked. "No. " Jarrod got up. He walked off and I looked at Amanda. "How's you're baby?" She asked. "Good. " I nodded. "Nice so Mr. Garrett is your child's father?" She asked. I just stared awkward. "No. Why would you ask that?" I asked. "Because the way he looks at you.... like you're perfect. Like he's.... in love with you." She said eery and quiet. "I've never even thought about him like that. " I shook my head. "Are you with the guy then?" She asked lightly. "No." I say sadden. "Me either and I never will. " Amanda said and I saw tears in her eyes. "What happened?" I asked low. "Well around the time I was with chance, I went out of state on the weekend and cheated. When I came back and found out later, I had no ideal who could be the father because they were close in time. I told chance he was the father so he wouldn't leave me. I tried to find the guy I slept with but I knew nothing that would help. Not a name or number. Then I saw a picture on Google. It was him..... he had died the day I gave birth. " She said dull. "I'm sorry Amanda. " I softly say feeling horrible. "No I'm sorry. I made our highschool years a nightmare. I was just always so jealous of you. " She cried. "Amanda," I say stopping myself. She looked up. "Mr. Garrett, he is my baby fathers and we secretly got married. " I say. It felt so nice. Like a weight has been lifted off my chest. "Oh my gosh! You two aren't together? Why?" She asked. "He had an affair to save our relationship. " I say and it all finally clicked. "Why'd you break up then?" She smiled. "He didn't tell me. It was with his ex and I guess I was just jealous. " I shook my head feeling guilty. "Listen. It's not right he had to sleep with her but he did what he had to do. Maybe he could've did the situation differently." She lightly said. "Yea. If I could take back my actions, I would. I would let go maybe after the 2nd time he deeply apologized." I said and tears begun falling. "It's not to late." Amanda said with a light smile. "Yea. " I nodded thinking.
