Albeit flawed,

Altair I

09/09/2018

03:58 AM

One look

One word

One sorry

One inkling

One indication

One hope

Hey,

Is this the place your intimation

would lead me to?

You must know,

I can sail across a thousand seas

I will raise my almost-wrecked banner and go to war upon foes that lurk beneath the gloom of the scourging seas

I don't care no matter the hazard

Unmapped territories don't frighten me

The reptiles of the depth—much bigger, but not invincible

This boy's armada of fleet has withstood more battles than you have ever been into

These I can confront with a stolid countenance

If at the end of the shore awaits you

You and your prize-winning smile

But, I must admit—

I am scared of you

Afraid that these subtle hints of yours are more than false indications I mistook for love

You are the gaping cliff the elders warned me not to play around

The box of cake I was teased to open

The first lick to a just-served ice cream I wish I didn't

The regretful puff of my first cigarette stick

The empty lights I should not have flickered on

I should not have wax-stamped your initials on my head

Or filled my brain with the image of your mouth as it traces into a smile: God how pearly those are

I should not have lost myself to your soul-penetrating scent

And fall madly every time you wear that strange perfume

I remember myself smelling your clothes eyes-shut when you unwarily placed it by a post; and thereto instantly replacing it with your own body in my fancy—I wouldn't mind sniffing your body all day

Oh how this new kind of fondness kept me smiling at irregular intervals

How this new kind of love I'm feeling is sending me to madness

The kind I never want sanity to be on the doorstep again

Hey,

Can you feel the fiery connection we have when we sit next to each other?

It's love

And honey, if we wait long enough without taking a step closer,

someone else might put out the flame

It's something that I fear will happen one day,

but it usually happens—

it does every time

Or is this some self-started fire that by it I am the only one scorched?

That's even terrifying

Unfortunately, it happens more often.