Indonesia's pov
My heart was aching seeing him like this, he was a mess, i saw it and i've never seen him like this before.
"Denver talk to me please what is going on?" i asked him.
I was trying my best to make him feel close to me like we were before, but he was avoiding me for one more time.
"Hey, whatever is bothering you, it will be okey i promise-"
"Don't fucking promise me anything, I don't need your promises" he cut me off.
"Why are talking to me like that, i'm trying to work things out, but you don't let me do it"
"Maybe you don't deserve it."
"Denver i know that you are hurt, but I am a person too, you know? I know that this is about Paulo"
"No,no please don't, don't say his name" Denver whispered, and more tears were rolling down from his face.
"He is my son, i am his mother, i want him back too Denver, don't push me away on this please, i need you"
"When all of this will be over, and we will finally get him back, i want a full costody of my son" he said with a serious tone in his voice.
"What? No you can't do that you will never take him away from me". He is just messing with me, he can't be serious.
"He is in danger with you"
"What the fuck are you talking about Denver you won't seperate me from my son, you have no right"
"I have all the rights i want. All of this is your god damn fault" he shouted at me.
And my world had been teared apart. I heard these words again from him. And he meant them, every single world.
"Damn it Indonesia, i changed for you, i changed everything i was doing, we were happy remember, you and i. I have never belonged to a family, never, I grew up with no mother by my side, i wasn't sure what even love is but i learnt it. I fucking did. And all that because of you and Paulo. But you have made a serious mistake. You hide her from me, You told me that you never had a mother, YOU TOLD ME SHE WAS AWAY. That fucking bitch who took our son is somewhere out there and she is playing with us, she is playing with him. If i knew about that i would protect my family, i would have known what she was threating us. It's a fucking shame that our kid is paying for our mistakes, for your mistakes. I was there, protecting you from everything, i promised that never like ever none of you will be hurt as long as i live. Look at us now, i don't even know where my son is , or how they're treating him."
he sobbed once more and i felt dizzy.
He was right, this is all my fault.
"I know that i made a mistake, and it's unforgivable, all I ever wanted was us to be happy, i didn't see that coming, she hadn't bothered me for three years, i though that she was away for good"
"Did you forget that you were married with a thief? a drug dealer? did you? Maybe you did but others didn't"
"I would die, just to bring him back i swear, i would do anything just to be in his place, so he could be here"
"Yeah that's probably the best thing you've said the past weeks" he said and walked past me, just to go inside.
"I'm sorry, I'M FUCKING SORRY DENVER" i said and kneeled to the ground, unable to deal with all this tension.
"I'm a human, i do make mistakes, but i never meant to hurt him and you. Everything i have ever done was for him. So he can be able to grow in family full of love, not with toxic people, who hurt us"
"He is not with his loved ones now though, he is with the toxic ones, so i don't think that you did a very good job"
"No please don't say that, that kills me Denver please"
"I was always telling myslef, that my kid would never grow up the way i was, he is going to be loved, he will have both of his parents and he will never be in danger. Who would have thought that everything was going to be exactly the opposite. Maybe we can't get away from our past Indonesia, maybe we weren't the best parents, maybe we should have never been together. You were perfect, I was mess, we shouldn't collide, because in the end you weren't perfect, and i wasn't only a mess, i was a fucking coward, who was unable to stand for his family." he said and went inside. Leaving me there.
I was the mess and he was perfect.
My heart was ripped of my chest. I was sitting there in a complete pain.
