Indonesia's pov
No one can imagine the anger and the pain i felt at this moment.
I know Denver well, and i also know Tokyo enough, just to understand what the fuck was going to happen in a couple of seconds.
"Oh pardon me, i didn't want to bother you" i said clearly annoyed.
"Oh it's okay we were just talking" Tokyo said laughing.
With four or five cocktails i wasn't sure if she could understand what was going on.
"So do you need anything else?" Denver asked me.
Sooner or later i swear i will kill him.
"Oh i'm sorry did i just ruin your night?" i asked him.
"Kinda" he answered.
Asshole.
"You were never able to stand with a right woman by your side though, so yeah i can't blame your tonight's choice" i said and walked away.
"Oh i forgot, your jacket" i thrown it at her.
"Okey hold on a sec, did you just talked about me ?" she asked, following me outside of her room and in the hallway.
"Hey i'm talking to you." she grabbed me by my arm.
"What do you want?" i asked her.
"I don't know you tell me, you burst inside my bedroom without even a knock and then you insult me in front of Denver like i'm some kind of whore"
"Oh and what? You think that he probably changed his opinion about you and he won't fuck you tonight?" i asked her.
"Okey girl you took this way to far. What's your fucking problem? huh? Do you like Denver? Is that it? Does he makes you horny? So you are making this scene because you're jealous and can't have him?" she asked me and i completely lost it
I slapped her hard in the face. And that's when everyone came out of their rooms.
"What is going on? It's pretty late, what are you doing?" Professor said
"She is just a crazy bitch, she slapped me in the face" she started yelling.
"Is that true Indonesia?" he asked me.
"Yes it is" i said.
"Okey i'm sure that it was nothing, just a small misunderstanding, i think we should all go back to sleep" Nairobi said.
"Yeah i think that this is a good idea, but before that, I believe that it would be really nice, if you can inform Tokyo that we can not sleep with other ones in our room, right Professor?, i mean its the rules" i said
"Well, Probably , she doesn't give a shit about the rules, Denver is too stupid to understand them, and Rio is just a kid that is clearly inside her panties and making dreams about marrying her. Am i right?" i asked.
Tokyo had fire in her eyes but i couldn't care less, while Rio was so shocked.
"I want everyone in their room right now" Professor said, and we all broke out little group party.
I went inside my room, and sat at the edge of the bed.
I fucked it up tonight.
That wasn't me. I don't behave like that. I don't know what happened, i just lost it, and i didn't act like the real me.
Now everyone has the right to hate me or called me a phyco bitch.
A few minutes later, there was a knock on my door.
"Come in" i said.
There was Moscow.
"Hey, i'm sorry i didn't want to wake you up" i said to him.
"Don't bother. So is it true?" he asked me , and i looked at him trying to understand what he actually ment.
"About Denver, was he in her room?" he said and i nodded at him, unable to say a single word.
"That's why you slapped her?"
"Yes, i know it wasn't the best thing, but i think that i need some respect, this is way too far" i said.
"Honey look at me, you do deserve some respect, you know that i love you like a daughter, but you ask for respect from the wrong person. Tokyo doesn't know you, and she won't give you respect, and by slapping her or make her be the bad person you won't get respect from Denver either , when a couple or an ex couple has a problem , the third person or someone else isn't responsible. You are. By your choices"
"You are right, i know what i did was wrong, i don't even know what is the right thing right now. All i know is that Denver hates me and he is trying to make me feel bad in any possible way. He should be here, right next to me, we should fight together but he isn't here. And that's the worst thing he have ever done. He promised me. TOGETHER till the end. Why is he betraying me? How could he forget. How?" i asked and i brust into tears.
Moscow came beside me and took me in his arms.
"Everything is going to be okey, i promise you that, we are going to be a family again, it is hard for all of us, but everything will be okey. He loves you more than you can imagine, i know that, you know that. He is just hurt from what had happen back then, as all of us are. He remembers everything. Trust me. He isn't that asshole everyone think he is. He is more than that. I know it and you know it. That's why you fell for him" he said and kissed me on my forehead.
"Get some sleep, we will talk again tommorow okey?. Good night sweetie" he said and left the room.
After i changed, I got underneath my blanket and thought about what Moscow told me.
He was so right. Maybe i was so selfish looking only my pain and not his, he hasn't the right behaviour but he is not what he shows. He has the most beautiful soul, and purest heart.
I miss this, i miss him.
SO
FREAKING
BAD.
