The time is now

Chapter 5

• Paramore - Ain't it fun •

"If the world wants you, it's gonna keep on coming till it gets you. And who am I that can fix it? Who am I that can change this if the world wants it do badly? Who am I to stop the end of the world if it keeps on coming?" -Patrick Ness

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My morning classes passed in a blur and soon I'm heading to my lunch table flanked, as always, by my two best friends.

Everyone seemed to be exceptional cheerful today. Everyone, that is, except me.

Even though my morning bickering with Ethan left me relaxed and ready for the day ahed, the conversation that I had with my parents left me frustrated, more determined to find out what they were hiding and ready to punch someone.

Not that I ever would. I can pass without the bruises that that would cause to my hand. Furthermore I don't need some raging rhino coming after me because I punched him for no reason.

I seriously have to stop comparing people to animals. It probably isn't healthy. Luckily no one can read my mind, otherwise I would be rotting away in some mental institution.
I mentally laugh. Like that would ever happened.

Most of my friends are already sitting and talking between them.
Ryan, Matt and Jordan are playing with their food and telling stupid jokes.
Brianna and Hunter are having a conversation about some new computer program. None of us understand a thing their talking about.

Brianna might be a cheerleader but she's a genius with computers.
How else would I be able to access the school records and personal students and teachers files?

It's no coincidence that I know so much about Courtney's personal life. Because of her family situation she's been going to the school psychologist which adds another file to her name. A file full of notes on her mental stability, disorder and prescription pills.

It definitely makes my life easier having the friends that I have.

Not much time after sitting next to Ryan with Anne and Nora in front of me, Alec arrives and sits besides Nora.

I look at Anne. Yup, she's thinking the same thing as I am.

"So, Nora... Do you have a date to my birthday party at Jordan's this Friday?" I smile innocently.

"Not yet." She looks disapprovingly at me.

Dammit. She knows.

Anne looks at me and mouthes discretely "Abort mission".

I shake my head and turn back to Nora. "Really? I can find you someone if you'd like?"I wait for a reaction from any for them.

Before she can answer Alec grabs her hand and and asks if she wants to go buy some ice cream with him.

Ohhh! He's so cute! They're perfect together. Just hope he uses this opportunity to ask her out.

If he doesn't I have to seriously consider the possibility of kidnaping him and torturing him until he admits he likes her, I'll spare you the gory details.
Afterwards I'll pay a plastic surgeon to make all his scars disappear, then I'll buy him a car or something so that he'll forgive me, maybe I'll pay for the expensive date that I'm already planning for him to take Nora on.
Obviously, I'll only let Nora see him after surgery. No need for her to get mad at me.

Sometimes I scare myself with my own thoughts. Perhaps I should be the one going to the school psychologist.
I honestly don't see that happening any time soon, though. If someone found out that I have these thoughts and decided to spread them around, I would make them sound crazy and have them hospitalized.