we're at a party, the third one this week. it's all fun until everyone only starts having attention for their significant others. michael, ash and luke, they all have their girlfriends with them, but me, no, no girlfriend for me. I'll just end up sitting somewhere lonely at the bar drowning the jealousy out with a couple drinks while watching everyone dance and have fun.
"cal, you've got dozens of girls who are into you and begging for your attention every night. just give at least one of them a chance. moping around like you are is not gonna make y/n break up with joey. the best you can do right now is get over her and allow yourself to fall for another person." ashton spoke loudly trying to make me hear it over the loud music that was playing. he's the only one I told about my crush on y/n. not that it wasn't obvious to everyone but he knows how head over heels I was for her. am, I still am.
ever since the day that we met, I couldn't get her out of my head. there was always something about her that made my heart jump every time I heard her name. I still remember that day very clearly. it was right after we all moved to LA, I wanted to go to the grocery store and got lost. I was walking down a road when I saw her leave a house from across the street, which I later learned was her brothers house.
"are you okay?", she yelled from across the street, giving me a confused look.
"fine, I'm just a bit lost." I yelled back.
"that sounds like an understatement.", she laughed, now talking softer after she had crossed the road. damn she looked beautiful, her hair was shining like gold in the sunlight and her ocean blue eyes sparkled everytime she smiled. "where do you live?", she asked.
"uh, I don't know exactly, but it's somewhere around that place from where you can see the hollywood sign. I'm sorry I really don't know I just moved here." I answered looking down at my feet.
"cool, I live somewhere around that area too so I can bring you there and then let's hope you can find your house by yourself.", she said smiling. "thank you so much! I- uh, what's your name? I'm calum.", I stuttered. "y/n", she giggled.
we talked some more nonsense on the way back and turns out we only live two blocks apart. we hung out almost every day ever since. my friends all love her and duke loves her too, and she loves all of them. she is amazing, perfect even.
it's a shame I didn't realise just how much I liked her before it was too late. she started seeing someone a couple months ago, he's a friend of her brother's. they met at a family dinner or something like that. I saw them together a couple of times and I already hate the guy wholeheartedly. everytime I see y/n laugh with one of his stupid jokes it feels as if someone is trying to squeeze my heart together so tight that it would burst into a million pieces. I wanna be the one who makes the silly jokes she laughs at, not the best friend.
joey, y/n's boyfriend, hates me too. he tries to keep y/n away from me all the time. y/n is my best friend and yes I may like her a lot more than she likes me, but that doesn't have to change our friendship. he shouldn't be keeping us apart, he should trust us and especially his girlfriend. I told him that but he didn't care, it just made him angry and in response he walked up to y/n, grabbed her and kissed her very roughly, eying me down the entire time, as if she was some trophy of a competition he won from me. y/n doesn't deserve to be treated that way. she's a wonderful girl, not a price. I wish she would just see who joey really is. I wish it was me she loved instead. but I'm too late. I had my chance and I fucked it up. I was too late, I'm always gonna be the one who was too late.
YOU ARE READING
Songs I wrote for you (CTH)
Fanfiction"it's called songs I wrote for you. so we'd never forgot our story. I don't really know what else to say except I love you and I'll never forget you. the title probably gave it away but these are all the songs i ever wrote for you and I hope you lov...
