Life Goes On (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 2

"Kira" I think I hear my mother calling my name. "Kira" I hear again and feel a hand gently shake my arm.

"Hmm" I mumble

"Kira, you need to wake up" she says softly while sitting on the bed.

"Too tired" I groan and open my eyes, finding my moms face inches away from mine.

"Come on, I want to talk to you about something" she says and pats the seat, signaling me to sit up.

"What's wrong?" I say while yawning and rubbing my eyes.

"So I just um wanted to remind you that Its still okay if you change your mind. " she pauses then continues "I know we went through a lot to get you a dorm and making sure it wasn't co-ed but flagstaff is two hours away. Do you still feel okay with it?" she asks and searches my face for an answer.

Honestly, if it was my choice, I wouldn't go. Personally, I would much rather stay home and not worry about socializing with others but I'm not that selfish. I don't want my mother to spend the rest of her life taking care of me. I'm 18 and I need to start acting like it.

"Yeah that's fine" I say though I shudder at the thought of being away from her.

"Are you sure? I don't want to force you to d-" I cut her off

"Mom, don't worry about it. I'll be fine, honestly" I say with a smile that hopefully convinces her, though I'm not sure if I'm trying to convince her or myself.

"Okay great" she says and hugs me tightly. "Now please get ready" she says while standing up "I want you to get there early so you can finish unpacking and have Sunday to yourself.

"Okay you're still going with me right?" I ask and she looks away.

"You know I would if I wasn't working today" she says with sympathetic eyes. "You know I really can't afford to miss anymore days, I need this job" she sighs and I nod, though I'm still slightly sad.

"Kira thank you for trying" she says with a sympathetic voice

"Trying what?" I say slightly confused.

"Everything, you know moving on" she says and looks down at the floor when she sees that I understand what she's talking about.

"Mom, I won't ever just move on, I hope you know that. It's affected me in a way you would never even comprehend, you know? What happened to me was enough but what happened to dad, killed me." I say trying to hold back tears  Her cheeks are wet and her eyes are red.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you from them" she sobs and wraps her arms around me.

"Mom please, stop. There was nothing you could do" I try holding in my tears but it's too painful. "I love you mom" I finally sob onto her shoulder and she hugs me tighter.

"I love you too." She says and adds " how about you don't go?" She smiles and I do the same.

"As appealing as that sounds, I'm going to have to decline that offer" I say and wipe my eyes.

"It was just a thought." She smiles and I giggle. "Oh my god Kira! You don't have much time, get ready!" She exclaims as soon as she looks down at her watch.

"I'll be quick" I say while gathering my clothes and a towel for a brisk shower.