Life Goes On (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 10

When I turn around, I see Harry approach me with a worried expression on his face. He strides over to me while running a hand through his hair.

"Uhh what's wrong?" He says once he notices my tear-stained cheeks and steps closer causing me to back away. It's a habit....I can tell he isn't used to girls avoiding him because he seems confused by my actions.

"Oh no it's n-nothing I uh just wanted to leave so I was about to call a friend." I stutter while making up an excuse.

"So you started crying because you wanted to leave?" He chuckles and I can't help but feel less tense. Why is he here though?

"I uh can take you back to your dorm if you want." He says while rubbing the back of his neck. He almost seems nervous. Why? I can't go with him.. I'm trying not to scream and cause a scene and he wants me to go with him?

"No it's totally okay because you are all going to go to the lake tonight so I don't want to bother you by having you go out of your way." I explain while slowly stepping away. Only I know that's not the real reason. I don't think I'll ever tell anyone...it's too hard to think about, let alone talk about.

"Actually I wasn't planning on going so it's okay. Come on let's go." He turns around and walks into the parking lot, leaving me standing confused. Why is it difficult to communicate with him?

"Why do you always over think things? Get in." He says while opening his door and getting into the car. Do I go? I never ever thought I would be getting in the car with a guy ever again but I need to stop being so scared. I slowly walk to the car and get inside. Once I'm in, he turns on the radio and we leave. The car is silent and I'm glad that the radio is on to conceal the sound of my rapid heart beat. I try controlling my breathing and sit pressed up against the window.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He says while tearing his eyes off the road to look at me.

His eyes are lighter than usual...

"Yes." I say making eye contact with him and then stare out the window. His gaze is so intense that I can't look into his eyes for more than five seconds. The rest of the car ride is silent except for a Bruno Mars song playing in the background.

~Harry's Pov~

Why is it so damn awkward in here? I've never felt this nervous about being in the car with someone ever. Usually when I'm in the car with a girl, we are either having sex or deciding where we are going to go to have sex. But Kira is so different and annoying, but different. I know that we just met but I thought she was into me because she was playing hard to get. It's not like I want her anyways. She's irritating. When she was showing no interest in me I thought that maybe a different girl would get a reaction from her but I was wrong. She just sat there staring off into space and thinking. Then she suddenly stood up and walked out without anyone even noticing except for me. I wonder what she was thinking about? No I don't... When I look over at her, she is looking out the window while twiddling her thumbs. I could see and hear her rapid breathing. Why is she so close to the window? At least I'm not the only one who is nervous. Once we pull into the campus parking lot she turns to face me. Holy shit! Her eyes are like fucking sea blue-green if that even is a color.

"Thank you." She says in a soft voice while looking up at me then quickly back down. She bites her bottom lip then turns around to open the car door. Oh my god why is she all of a sudden so attractive. Shit.

"Woah there." I say and get out of the car.

"What?" She says while she backs away with wide eyes. What the hell? Is she scared of me?

"Your just going to use me for a ride and then make me leave." I say jokingly and her shoulders immediately relax. What did she think I was gonna do?

"That was the plan." She smiles slightly and turns around.

"Thanks for the invite." I say and lock my car door to follow her. Once she reaches her room, she walks in and shuts the door behind her. What the fuck? Didn't she see me behind her? God why is she annoying? She pisses me off. Should I knock and continue to annoy her? Hell yeah.

"Kira! Open!" I shout while banging on the door. Why do I want to see her so bad? After a long 20 seconds she finally opens the door.

"Harry, why are you still here?" She says in an annoyed voice. It's fun getting a reaction from her.

"I was fucking right behind you!" I shout; now I'm getting irritated. She is so fucking annoying.

"Please don't come in, you have to go." She says while staring at her blue vans. Before I can reply she steps backwards and shuts the door. What the hell just happened? I gave her a damn ride.

Once I'm inside my car, I immediately call one of the girls on my contact list to hook up with tonight. They are all so easy, too easy. Every girl wishes to fuck me... Why is Kira so different? Maybe she is a lesbian? Or maybe she doesn't find you attractive, my subconscious adds. I don't understand her... She is always nervous and serious....And fuck she's attractive. But I'm not gonna waste my time with her cause I can't stand her and her attitude. Why be around someone who keeps their distance when I can have a buffet of women at any time? This sounds like a much better plan...

~Kira's Pov~

I'm thankful that Harry drove me here but I'm glad that he didn't come in. I know if he really wanted to, he could've but he was nice enough to let me be, for once. I would literally have a panic attack if he came in here. I honestly don't understand him. He is nice and caring one day and then rude the next, I can't keep up with his moods. I sit down on Toria's bed to relax a bit before continuing on with my afternoon.

I decide to spend the rest of my day in my room. I call my mom to see how she's doing but of course she asks me a million questions instead. After a long conversation with her, I do schoolwork and then paint. I decide to paint some sunflowers to hang on the walls. This room doesn't quite feel like home without a couple of bright colored paintings. I absolutely love sunflowers and the funny thing is, the name Kira means sun or beam of light. After 2 hours and 20 paint bottles later, I finally finish 2 paintings. It usually doesn't take me this long to paint but when the T.V is on and with Leah texting me, it's quite hard to keep focus. I decide to hang up the paintings above my dresser and over my bed.

Before I know it, I'm slowly drifting to sleep while thinking of the vibrant color yellow...

Along with the color green....