Me, four Boys and one playstation (an The Fooo Fanfiction)

31. confusion - Ann

I sat on my favorite place in school: the roof. I always came here when I was sad. It was a place where you could see a huge area around the school.

I was invisible for other people here. No one would ever look up to the roof. You could enter through a trapdoor on the attic if the school. The only ones who knew the way up here where Maja, Lou, Ally and I. No one else ever came up there.

Now I was Alone and I was being myself. I cried.

In the cafeteria, I had been so angry. All that anger to Oscar leaving me returned. And now there was that grief too. I had thought I was over him. That I moved on. Apparently I didn't.

When I face Oscar again, after four weeks without him, all these feelings were back. Not only the painful feelings, but also all of that desire stuff. My stomach turned around, my heard skipped in its own rhythm, my head couldn't think straight and my legs turned into jelly. I may have looked like I was angry but strong on the outside, but on the inside I wanted him more than ever.

I wasn't sitting on the roof for long when the trapdoor opened and someone came. I turned around. It was Felix.

"Hi love!" He said and smiled compassionate.

"how did you find me here?" I asked wiping my tears away.

"Easy! I followed you and when you where gone as I reached the attic, that was the only way. And you left your shoes there so..."

He took place next to me.

" you know he really does love you." He said after a long period of no sound.

I remained in silence.

"And I know you still love him too."

"Yes? You think so?" I sad more angry then I meant to.

More calm I said: " well I guess you're right " I looked at my hands. "But I'm so angry at him."

"I know. And he nows it too. But he won't stop until he gets you back."

"Yeah? And what then? One night of sex and he's just going to leave again? No I am not going through that again."

"I don't know any of his plans but you should let him talk to you."

Again silence.

"Today was the first time I saw him smile since that egg fight."

I looked at Felix.

Was he serious? Oscar and no smiling? I couldn't think of that.

"Well I was better of without him."

"No you weren't. Ann in the short time we've known each other I learned something. You and Oscar belong together. When I see him all being sad and she. I see you now... The same! It only gets more sure. You'll have to decide that yourself. But now we gotta go to our math lesson." He got up and we left.