Toxic Merman (JonDami Fic)

Knowing Myself Again

Hawaii, Kauai Island
Night Time, Rain Storm

{Damian}

            We've finally reached Hawaii Island like a while ago. It began to rain when we set fin into the Hawaii region. It got heavier soon and the waves started getting dangerous. We decided to take a break for the night and rest somewhere safe around the island... so no humans could see us.
            Hopefully.
            The whale went deeper down into the ocean to hide itself. Iruka and I decided to get some warm waters in our gills. Thankfully we're in a location where humans don't visit often because the people claimed that this particular beach has sharks and some people were attacked by it. So it was blocked.
            We found an underwater cave just further away from the beach... which is just perfect to spend the night at because it's spacious-- not to mention creepy and dark-- but with our scales providing some source of light, it's all good. The best part of this cave is that there's an escape at the end of it for which we can take if any divers decide to take a late-night dip. We had to chase a lot of crabs, shrimps and clams from the cave so we could hide in it.
            Iruka ended up eating some of those shellfishes... and now she's all full and resting.
            We've been in the cave for a while now and Im still singing. I don't know why but ever since I knew about my siren song, I just can't stop singing it. Well, for one thing, it's feels very good to sing. I don't know how to explain this because it's all still new to me but it just feels nice. But the odd thing is my siren song doesn't sound like my own voice but a much more beautiful key tone.
            "You're still singing?" Iruka asked.
            "Apparently so." I stopped singing to answer her. "I don't know why though."
            "Maybe you're letting out your sadness." She suggested.
            "Sadness?" I ask, looking at her.
            "Yes, remember I told you earlier that Sirens sing to let our their emotions... I'm guessing yours is sadness because it's not harming me." She said.
            "Our songs can affect sea creatures as well?" I ask.
            "Some songs yes." She said. "It depends on the emotions the sirens let out."
            "Sadness is the only emotion that doesn't affect us because when a siren is sad, they will sing their song to whatever they're sad about, in the process, mend themselves as well."
            "In my case, is it that Im missing my human friend?" I ask.
            "You tell me." She said. "A sirens heart is more complicating than any other creature in the sea."
            "Maybe I am." I held onto Jon's compass necklace on my neck.
            It has been so long since I felt Jon in my arms. His hair, his skin, his lips... heck, I miss staring into his sky blue eyes. I have no way to contact him... then again, I don't even know if he's doing alright. I don't even know if he's truly over our ridiculous argument we had before being separated.
            I hope he is... because Im very sure am over it.
            God, I wish I could see him right now.
            "Damian, I forgot to mention something. Your song is unique. Every siren has their own song. But when you sing to a human, it is always bad... even if your intentions are good." She said. "Be careful when you sing... do not dedicate your song to your human friend for it might cause him harm."
            When Iruka mentioned my song being dangerous to humans, I started recalling back to the first day where I realized that I was a siren inside a tank while in the Batjet. Jon and I were able to talk normal while I'm behind the glass and him on the other. But when Mera opened the tank, Jon was affected by something. By his expressions and responses, it felt really painful. I knew it was me but I didn't know specifically which part of me was causing it.
            Then while in the skies, I was calling out to Jon after he left because we had an argument. My calling made the Batjet doors open by itself and the tank along with me, crash into the ocean. Even father didn't realize the door opening till the last minute before crashing.
            All this while, it was my song that was affecting Jon. Even when I'm talking, to him, he was hearing my song, not my voice.
            My song is causing danger to him.
            Now im starting to wonder if my singing just now has caused him any danger or not because I was... singing to him.
            This is bad.
            "All this while, I've been singing to him, Iruka." I said slowly, couldn't believe it my myself. "He was in my mind when I was singing my song."
            "Oh no." Iruka said with fear in her voice.
            "Oh God... what if something bad happened to him?!" I started panicking. "What if... what if I led him to his death?!"
            "Damian, calm down." Iruka came closer to comfort me. "I'm sure he's okay."
            "How sure can you be?!" I said coldly. "It's not like you can see him!"
            "You're right... I don't know and I can't see him." She said. "But I do know he's a strong human just like you."
            "Damian... the way you describe your friend to me let's me know enough of what kind of human he is... and I believe he is a strong human that wont go down without a fight. Just like you."
            I calmed down just a little and met her eyes.
            "I'm sorry for not telling you about the bad side of your song sooner." She said. "I really forgotten about it till you mentioned it."
            "It's alright." I said. "Maybe I took it too far by singing too long."
            "It's not wrong to sing for so many tide passes... but you just gotta be careful on how you're singing it... and to who." She said. "Sometimes, we are harmless to ourself, but deadly towards the rest."
            The entire time she was talking, I kept my eyes on my hands. No matter how long I've spent underwater, or how many times I wake up, I still can't believe I've become a predator of the sea... a threat to my loved ones... but at the same time, im still... me.
            The talons replacing my human fingernails -- for which it looks like I had a manicure because it's pitch black --