Fizzled out

Chapter 9

Chapter nine

So it turns out that Layla has just moved here recently too, which is a bonus for me as I'm not the only new bee around here. She moved here 2 months ago with her parents from Toronto, Canada she used to live here when she was younger but moved away at about 7 as her parents are authors and there were better opportunities over there apparently. She's been family friends with Daniel's family since they were in diapers so explains how close they seemed at school today. So I guess what I'm trying to say is Layla seems nice. she's genuine and I talked to her a bunch today as we had the same English class which was great as didn't know anyone in that class on my first day so life's pretty good. Well maybe not so good considering right now I'm in the girl's bathrooms hiding from my not so good "friends". Ashleigh had confronted me earlier today again and turns out being friends with Layla is something she does not want happening in my life. Who knew she thought she controlled me, I'm not her little robot am I? Well sure I dress different because of her and go to the mall which I wouldn't have been caught dead doing a couple months ago and maybe I have started to change my attitude towards things a bit but their only small things so is it really that bad? So I guess back to the point the reason why I'm sitting here in the girls bathrooms sitting on the closed lid of the toilet seat. With mascara running down my face. Well don't laugh okay but because I'm scared. OK. There I said it. I'm scared of what I'm becoming and I don't know how to get out of it. I know I've only known these girls a couple days but the truth is and I hate to admit it is they terrify me. They scare me to the point that I'm hiding in the bathrooms crying, hugging my knees and trembling like mad. I never used to let these girls get to my head but today at lunch when Sacha told me Ashleigh was using me to make a point to her ex boyfriend that she could be friends with anyone. That's when I snapped, when I broke and crumbled. I realized I was using her but at the same time I was to oblivious to see that she was playing me. Why did I even think for a second that I had even a smidge of a chance of being even fake friends with these girls. Because obviously I was dead wrong. 
Ashleigh's boyfriend thought that Ashleigh could only make friends with fake, pretty and popular people. AndI was none of those things. Therefore I became the victim. When she saw me on that first day she knew I was gonna be the one to prove her ex wrong to get him back. And by me going up to them I just made it even easier. I should never have done that. I should never hav- The bathroom door slammed open making me dig my nails into my palms my breathing quickening. "Sydney? Are you in here?" I let out a sob as I realized it was Daniel. My eyes were red and puffy and I was still shaking. "yea," I let out a small squeak. 
"Sydney, open the door," his voice sounded comforting and inviting. I took a deep breath and used every last ounce of my courage to turn the lock on the door. The cubicle door swung open slowly letting out a low screeching sound. As soon as I saw Daniel's face I crumbled he reached out his arms for me and embraced me resting his chin on my head and whispering to me trying to calm me down. This was not like me, opening up to a boy days after I had met him. Letting him see me cry. My own mother had not even seen me cry since I don't know when. 
Daniel held me till my breathing returned to normal and didn't say anything. He held me and didn't try to find out what was wrong. He helped me clean myself up and gave me his big grey hoodie to cover my bare trembling arms. I pulled it over my head thanking him quietly. Then I left. I should have stayed. I should have been more thankful to him but right now I just had to get out of here. Far away from this school to calm down. My breathing had pretty much returned to normal. I would call Daniel later and thank him but right now I just needed to get home. I pulled my headphones out of my bag to try and block out the world though I didn't turn any music on, I just wanted it to be quiet. Silent. I ignored the weird looks I got as I walked out the school gates and I started the walk home. I hope nobody asked questions, but to be honest right now I didn't care. I have a doctor's appointment tonight and right now all I needed was sleep.

Once I was finally home I quietly slipped up to my room and pulled off today's clothes everything except Daniel's hoodie, I slipped on some pajama shorts and slid into bed I pulled the covers up to my chin and stared at my orange ceiling. It was obnoxious and bright but I Sydney Brown did not care one bit. I set my alarm for 5:00pm and closed my eyes listening to the gentle beat of the washing machine downstairs willing me to sleep.

Author's note 

So was gonna add more to this chapter but decided that event can wait till the next otherwise this would end up very very long! Anyway hope you enjoyed!

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