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Chapter 8- Cameron

Cameron...How could I forget about Cameron. There’s a lot to talk about with him. Lets start off by saying I’ve known Cameron since I was little. His mom and my mom were best friends and they hung out a lot. They got to hang out a lot because they had us around the same time. He’s older than me by like a week. So whenever they hung out we hung out. We were with each other a lot. It was like our mom’s planned for us to go to the same elementary and the same middle school (which they did.) I never really liked Cameron more than a friend but 8th grade happened. I don’t know what kicked in but I started to like Cameron. He liked me too, so we went out. It didn’t last long, we lasted like 2 weeks. After that it just got really awkward and weird. We didn’t talk to each other. When he come over with his family, he would hang out with his siblings and I would be upstairs. Then shortly after that we grew a hatred for each other. I don’t know why but we did. We just couldn’t stand each other. This lasted for almost a year. Until our friends told us that they planned a movie and they told Cameron I wasn’t going to be there and they told me Cameron wasn’t going to be there. So Cameron went and I went, when we got there and we say each other we both weren’t happy. Although it was a pretty fun night. I know movies are supposed to be quiet and we were but the movie was boring and we started to text each other in a group message. Then towards the end of the movie Cameron and I were back to be friends. It was like our friends planned this out to make us friends again. Shortly after that we were best friends again....but on the other note I started to like him again but I never told him that. It wasn’t worth losing him as a friend. If it was friends for us to be then friends it is.

When high school came around and this time we went to a different school, so now it was harder for us to talk because we were both so busy with school, sports and other things that involves school. We slowly stopped talking to each other. We officially stopped talking when I got my first boyfriend aka Tyler. This happened because Tyler and I were at my house and Cameron and his family ended up showing up and well Tyler and Cameron didn’t seem to get a long. I don’t know why but there was something there that they both didn’t like about each other. When Tyler left, Cameron told me his didn’t approve of Tyler and I could do better and I told him it was my life and I’ll do what I want. That was the last day we talked.

8 months later when Tyler and I broke up we started to talk again. It was Christmas when I told him, my mom invited his family over for christmas. Of course they all came. It took me forever to get Cameron to listen to me, but once I told him that Tyler and I were no longer together he started to talk to me again, it was like nothing ever happened. Cameron and I were back to being good friends again, it was like if I never dated Tyler I wouldn’t have lost Cameron as a friend and we could have been talking then 8 miserable months.

I bet you can guess what happened next…. I started to like him once again. But this one was different. I started to like him a week after Christmas happened, I didn’t tell him, like before I was going to risk our friendship. The maybe April it slipped out. I was telling him about Alex and how Alex was jealous of him because I liked someone and not him. Thats where Cameron asked “oh who do you like?” All because I said I liked someone I was stuck on the that question for the longest time, I wanted to tell him but I didn’t at the same time. I did my best to avoid answering the question but he wouldn’t let it go. So finally I just told Cameron that I liked him. I was having a panic attack because I thought he didn’t feel the same about me but he did. After I told him I liked him, he said he liked me too. At that point I was still having a panic attack but it wasn’t because I was scared or nervous it was because I was happy. It had been so long and I finally told him and he said he liked me back. How great was that?

So that started something for us. We never went out, as in like a relationship. But we would go on dates. Our first date was at the movie. Probably one of my most awkwardest dates I’ve been on. We sat there and watch the movie, thats it. No arm around the shoulder not even a hand hold. Nothing at all happened. But you could tell Cameron was really nervous because he was shaking a lot and talking really fast. It was kind of cute. Our second date was at the mall. This time we at least held hands. I’m going to go off topic of one second when I told Cece about our first day, she was so angry that he didn’t make a move. I was okay with it but it was just so awkward. Then when I told her about the second date she was pissed that he didn’t kiss me. Once again I was okay with it. Now for the third date...It never happened. He blew me off like 3 times and I was like I’m done with this. So I stopped asking him and figured he can plan a day when he’s not busy. Yeah he never planned that day. Plus he slow stopped talking to me and then all the sudden we were texting and he never responded. He wasn’t coming over the house anymore so I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what I did wrong to make this kid unhappy with me. I have tried to talk to him many times and he would respond like twice and that was it, so I don’t know. I figured we were done for good. But now he’s my one love? How does that work? So that Cameron for ya.