Sixteen years ago, he lost his wife and now, this single father of two might just get his chance to love again.
Three years ago she was left at the altar but she will she be able to open her heart again to a man who hasn't loved anyone other than hi...
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June 4th, 2022...I can't believe this day is here, my baby second baby girl—my youngest biological daughter is graduating from high school. If the fall or next year, I'll bee sending her off to college and although I have the other three and little Noah left to send off into the real world, this is a big moment for me and my girls.
I could've lost Holly the night I lost Jessica and it was a struggle looking at her every day, there were times where I'd just let her cry till she started to turn blue in the face because the pain was too hard.
For a while I think I hated my daughter because she was the constant reminder that I'd lost my wife, the first love of my life and I've spent the last seventeen years making it up to her.
I spoiled my girls because I felt bad that I lost myself after losing Jessica, I can't say her death because she never died but I did lose her the day Holly was born. I've held so much guilt and pain for so long over what I've done to the girls that it was easy to hold nothing but anger for Jessica.
Even still, seeing the woman who gave me my daughter for the first time in sixteen years was hard to ignore. It broke my heart to watch Holly try to be there for her mother and have a relationship only for Jessica to crush it by judging her for who she loved.
She wasn't around so she didn't get to see Holly growing up, she didn't get to see the bond Beth and Holly have and how perfect Beth is for Holly. My baby girl isn't your typical girly girl that people assume she'd be.
Sure she spent most of her time with my mom and sister in the first two years of her life but that didn't stop her from finding interest in things that interested me. I feel that in a way, Holly grew up trying to prove to me that she's worthy of being my daughter because she herself held some guilt.
But it all just makes me even more pissed off at what Jessica did.
The girls understand what their mother did and like myself are confused as to the why but we've all moved past it. I now have a beautiful wife and we have a little boy who's almost a year old and I couldn't ask for anything better.
Noah is the light of my life, he and his mother came to me at a time where I'd given up on myself and all hope of loving anyone ever again. People will say things between Mandi and I moved too fast and they're probably right because it only took me less than two weeks to claim her as mine and three weeks to get her in my bed.
Well the hotel bed
It's by chance or luck that she got pregnant off our first time ever being intimate but, I believe that is she wasn't pregnant I would've fallen back into Jessica's arms only for her to walk away again.
I wouldn't have survived that.
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It's a miracle that we've all made it to this day in one piece but I thank god every day I wake up to a house filled with my wife and children.
