I'm Not Hopeless Just Helpless

Chapter #16

Harry's Point of View

I woke up to the lads talking about random stuff. It was a nice change as we don't get enough time to bond anymore. Niall caught my eye, but I made a face cause I didn't want Louis to know just yet. Niall catching it, nodded slightly and I must admit if I wasn't looking right at him I would have missed the movement completely. Good I can have some fun! I started to pull weird faces doing everything to make Niall laugh which was working. I turned my face to neutral so Louis couldn't grasp what was happening behind him and watched as he tried pick up the conversation and pulled another causing Niall to laugh again and Louis sighed then sassily ask.

"Oh, for God's sake Niall! What the hell is so bloody funny?!" I went to neutral and waited for Louis to attempt to pick up the chat again then I pulled a different face that made Niall laugh louder and this time Zayn caught it as well and started laughing along however, this time Lou groaned.

"I swear you lot are all off your meds!" I knew Lou's next target of interaction would be Liam because he is the only one who hasn't laughed yet so keeping still as humanly possibly I hinted at Niall that I needed to get Liam. Niall getting the message subtly nudged Liam who looked at him then looked at me his chocolate brown eyes opening widely before I hit he with the funniest face I could possibly pull, and this got him chuckling. All the boys were laughing now except Louis who sassed.

"Fucking hell nothing should be this fucking funny!" and the he gently dropped my hand and went to check the lads temps causing me to laugh quietly then as an added bonus he flicked them all in the bicep shaking his head slightly he turned around to head back to me. I took in Louis' appearance and God he looked positively knackered, he had dark shadows under his eyes like he hadn't slept in days, his hair looked like he hasn't stopped racking a hand roughly through it, the worse part for me was his eyes; instead of being his normal sapphire they were stormy grey. I hated that colour in his eyes because that means he's beyond stressed and deeply troubled. I decided that I would just smile at him in hopes I could spark the light sapphire colour back. The moment he locked eyes with me I could tell his breathe hitched and yes the light sapphire returned, this made me so happy that a dimple popped out making him jump up and down like a school kid then he stopped and frowned.

"You utter tit! You were pulling fooking faces behind me back! You were making them laugh while I was holding you fooking hand. Hazza that's not fair! Your first thought should have been of me! Not making these arseholes laugh!" Niall, Zayn and Liam laughed loudly and heartily at Louis little rant while I made grabby hands, or should I say attempt to for some reason my movements were limited, and I couldn't speak. Noticing my panic Lou climb into bed next to me and smiled down at me, leaning down his kissed me with so many different emotions that I was overwhelmed but only for a second before I kissed him back our movements mirroring each other perfectly, breathless he pulled away; thumbing my cheek slightly. I gazed back up at him and reached to move his fringe out of his face, he smiled and grabbed my hand and placed a kiss on my palm. I tried to say something, but nothing came out causing me to freak out.

"Harry, Honey you're okay, you're okay." I shook my head cause I couldn't bloody speak "You need to stop thrashing your head about like that babycakes as you'll rip the stitches" I felt sick, "Shit! Zayn get a nurse; Liam pass me a sick bag and Niall go get some water" The boys rushed to do their tasks as Louis gently sat me up. Liam returned with a sick bag in time for me to heave my guts up, Niall arrived and handed the cup to Louis with a straw.

"Sip this. Swell it around your mouth first okay." nodding I did what Louis suggested. Spitting the mouth full into the sick bag which Liam took and threw in the bin. Zayn then barrelled in with a nurse

"What seems to be the problem?" She asked I pointed at my throat and Louis told her I vomited "Well the medication you're on will make you feel nauseous so that is to be expected.". I rolled my eyes heavily before driving into Louis' pocket, pulling out his phone and unlocking thanking my lucky stars that he still had the app I used last time I was on vocal rest. Typing the question, I wanted answered more than anything. I pressed the play audio button, but no sound came out. I closed my eyes in frustration only to snap them open when I felt Lou take his phone from my hands.

"I had the sound off me love. Here..." He explained "try again." as he passed it back so I could press the 'play audio' button. I smiled when a robotic voice came out.

"Why can't I talk? What's wrong with my voice? You know I only have my job because of my voice. Is this temporary? Should I be looking at colleges? I never did finish high school!" Oh God! I'm going to be sick again sensing this Louis had a sick bag under my chin and pulled my hair into a loose ponytail as I expelled my stomach contents again, he handed the cup of water so I could repeat the process from before.

"Mr Styles please calm yourself. You had major surgery done so you have to take it easy. Your voice is temporarily gone due to the fact when you came in your airwaves was so blocked that we had to make an incision underneath your voice box in order to attach you to a ventilator, that way we could make you breathe essentially. It is temporary as the swelling is still there. When the swelling goes down and if no infections arise you'll have full access to your voice, but you'll have to wait until the stitches are removed once that happens you'll be able to return to your day job." I typed out another message.

"What happened to me?"

"Unfortunately, you'll have to wait for Dr. Hunter to explain." Louis carded his hands through my curls gently tugging on a couple of ringlets. Feeling exhausted I closed my eyes and laid back down, Louis came down with me and we found ourselves in our usual spooning position (me as the little spoon naturally).

"Go to sleep baby everything will be fine when you wake up." Louis draped his left arm over my waist, I immediately reached for his hand and intertwined his '28' fingers with mine and pulled it tightly into my chest. "Haz, careful" Louis shuffled closer so there was no space between my back and his chest.