Freedom Island With You

Mother's Love 10

"They should not see me," Risette said.

"You told me that you miss them so much, so why?" Aurore asked.

"Just go and tell that I really miss them," Risette told her.

"Risette, you waited so long for this, how can you just ignore this opportunity?"

"Just go this time, I'll tell why later."

Aurore called Klein.

Klein noticed her.

"Klein do you still remember me? I'm your mom's friend, at the hospital," she told him.

"Yes ma'am."

" Klein, as I have said, I am your mom's friend, I'll be more comfortable if you will call me Tante (aunt in French)," Aurore told Klein.

"Okay, Tante."

"Klein, I'm sorry but I just have a short visit here, may I see Star?"

"Yes, Tante, please come inside."

As Aurore saw Star and as Star saw Aurore, Star immediately hugged Aurore. Aurore is touched.

"By the way, Star call me tante, I'm aunt,  I'm your mom's friend."

"How's mommy?"

"She's getting better and she hopes to see you soon."

"Can we come and see her tante?"

"No, not yet, Star, how are you?"

"I'm okay tante, but I will be more okay, if I see mom and she's here."

"Star, please understand mom okay? She's feeling better now hut not yet totally fine."

"Tante, please tell mom that I will wait for her, we will wait for her here."

"Okay, I'll tell her that, I'm sorry but I have to go right away, I'm glad that you are okay here."

Then, Aurore left immediately.

As she goes inside the car.

"They are okay," Aurore told Risette.

"I'm glad they are."

"Is that all?"

"I'm happy as long as they are happy and safe."

"Risette, do you know how Star misses you?"

"I miss her more than you know and they know."

"But why you have to hide from them?"

"I'm afraid I might lost my son and daughter again."

"Risette, they are not your son and daughter, remember that."

"But I feel they are and I can't take to lose them again."

"Is talking to them making you lose them?"

"Not yet the right time."

"When will that right time come? Talking to them even for a minute is already good."

"If I do, they will stop waiting for me, they will think I will live with them, and then after that, they will leave me."

"And if you don't appear they will keep waiting for you, is that what you mean?"

"I'm okay with the thought that I have my son and daughter waiting for me, that I can see them living in the villa than waiting for my son and daughter who are gone. I can't live that way."

"Won't it make you harder to move on?"

"Aurore, I'm okay now, I already have them back."

"Risette look, are you really going to live this way?"

"Aurore, they are my children, and I will never let them go from me."

"But, how could you..."

"Please stop. Please help me."

"If that will make you feel better, I am your friend, I won't hinder you from doing that."

On the other hand, Star's real mom is in so much pain as she can't still believe about her sudden lost.

"Please let me take sleeping pills so I won't wake up and remember about Elish."

"Please be strong. Whatever happened is not your fault, bear that in your mind. There's no one to blame because it's an accident," Star's real dad told her.

"But I can't accept that I am alive while she's gone. It hurts me, it is really hurting me a lot. I feel like Elish is asking why I let her go without me, why did I not stop her from going, I feel like  I did it on purpose even if I didn't not."

"Elish is gone and we can no longer do anything to have her back. What is the best thing to do is to move on."

"That is an easy thing to say, you can say that because you don't feel guilt inside you, but how can I live the way I should live if I am eaten by the guilt I have in my heart and mind?"

"You have love Elish so much and I am sure she felt it. She felt how much you love her."

"But why can't I remember that? Why do I keep thinking she should have been here alive only if I did not let her go alone? Am I that too bad as a mother? I feel like I am the worst mother," she said and then cried out with so much sorrow.

Star's dad hugged his wife. She comforted her.

In Star's dad's mind:
"In the first place I am against with the Paris tour, but that's you, you insisted you have to go because you want to relax."

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not taking good care of her," she told her husband.

Shar's dad just continue to comfort his wife.

"I miss everything about Elish. Everything about her even the least about her, I miss everything and I know you miss her too but I took her away from our lives."

"Stop thinking that way."

Then suddenly, she stood up and went to Elish' room.

She tried to remove Elish' pictures, and clothes on her room.

She was stopped by her husband.

"Don't do that. Those were the only memories we have about her."

"You told me to move on, and this is how I have to move on."

"You cannot erase her in your heart and mind. Even if you will throw everything about her, you cannot throw your heart and your mind."

"Then how should I forget and stop the pain in my heart?"

"Accept. Accept that she's gone and she will never come back."

"That is something that I cannot do. No matter how it hurts, my heart and mind cannot accept that she's gone. I feel like I'm slowly breaking into pieces everytime I think about her. I feel like I don't have the right to even say I love her because of what happened. I love so much but I think no one believes me because I think that all of you are blaming me of her death. Am I not a good mother?"

"I believe that you love her. I believe that you've been a good mother to her."

She really has to take sleeping pill so she could stop blaming herself because of her daughter's sudden death.

While sleeping, Star dreamt about an airplane. In her dream, she's very excited and happy that finally she's going to visit a place of her dream.

But then, she suddenly shouted...Klein run to her room feeling so worried what's going on.