What the red room did to me

Part 4

Nat pov

    I gasped in horror and and was shoxked when ivan asked me to use what i have learnt in the past few weeks to kill one of my fellow black widow trainees. In order to please him and show him that i cam be worthy of being the next black widow and also to fight a place to live, i did what he asked and i choose to fight her in our daily deulling classes. She was weak, weaker than i thought she was going to be and it was a very easy fight. She was slow and unbalanced conpared to me. After what was aboyt 5 mins, i already knocked her out of this world. I glanced slightly over my shoulder and looked at all the other candiddates look shkcked and stunned and i looked at ivan as he smirked and muttered a silent good. I was beaming in my heart as i learnt in the red room we are not suppose to show even a slightest of emotions and we cannot show any love or gratitude as it just will prove we are weak and dont deserve to live and serve russia. I walked of the duelling floor and walked out of the room. As i knew, ivan followed me out and said he was proud of me. He asked me to go the nurses office and i was to be given an injection which will make me stronger. I bowed and said yes as i was gald i was one of ivans favourites if not his favourite. I walked towards the nurses office which then i stepped in to the smell of bleach and alchohol. I sat in thw chair and afyer he gave me the injection, i gritted my teeth as i felt smthg surging in my body and i saw ivan at the side. He nodded his head and i nodded back and he whispered to the doctor that i was ready. After that, i didnt hear anything as i drifted off to sleep. I was thinking, ready? Ready for what? But i wish i never questioned.