What the red room did to me

Part 8

And that one day finally came when i was 23. I was still being sent to take down all the shield members. But i had a different plan in mind. This time i was suppose to take down the so called strongest shield agent that ever lived called clint barton. I would take the jet and go to shield like i did every other month. But instead of taking down shield agents, i would ask for their help. I will pretend i have 2 gunshots to make it look serious, ask for their help to take down red room as ir was the one who tortured me all this years. There was only one flaw in this plan. I dont know how ro ask people for help. Im not weak. And the red room trained to us to be strong perople to fight for russia. We were brainwashed and that left me scars... Not physical scars... But mental scars. Every other candidate in the red room was always brainwashed to wipe away their memories, but however, i fought against the nightmares that were put to scare me. I tried my best to fight but it was in vain. What they did to me was unforgivable and it was not someone or anyone should deserve. Even though im may look cold hearted on the outside, i am soft hearted bcoz the red room broke my heart, and from since then i pretend to be strong and not weak, be cold hearted and kill people, giveing me my red in the ledger. But everytine i kill someone, i feel guilty. And th at is what made me want to quit the red room. But its not possible to just quit. They will do everything to make sure you suffer and come back. So the only way.... Is to destroy it.