1:18am, i looked up at the clock in my office and switched off my computer, grabbing a drink on my way up to bed i still had the same uneasy feeling i had been getting for the past few days. we are still in isolation, and i've been sleeping really bad recently. Ever since I had a dream a few nights ago, it sounds so stupid because i know its wont happen but I cant get the image out of my head.
dianne went up to bed nearly 3 hours ago so she will be well asleep by now, i quietly went into our bathroom to brush my teeth and get ready for bed, i walked over to the bed and took of my clothes from the day just leaving on my boxers, i switched off the lamp dianne had left on and got into bed, shuffling into the covers dianne rolled over and murmered something i couldnt quite understand i laughed and massaged her head bringing her into a hug, our legs entwined together and suddenly the anxiousness i once felt melted away.
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i woke up with a sudden nervousness throughout the night dianne had turned over and i had shuffled to my side of the bed i no longer felt calm dianne was the only one that made me feel safe. i looked over at her sleeping away, i know she would want me to wake her up in this situation i've told her how i have felt these past few days and we laughed about it together and she reasured me everything is ok and if i wake up to just wake her up but i couldnt she looked so peacefull so instead i moved closer towards her and wrapped her in my arms. although this time i still felt on edge i laid there for 10 more minutes before walking over to the bathroom.
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I felt Joe move from his spot behind me, after he had been in there for a while i shouted his name, he came back through to the bed and sat down he looked scared. i stroked the side of his face 'whats wrong joey' he shrugged and i immediately knew what was wrong he hadn't told me exactly what it was that happened in his dream but it seems to have really scared him, 'is it about what we talked about, the dream'. he nodded his head and i pulled the covers over us and brought him into a tight hug.
everything's ok, i've got you.' i kissed the top of his head something joe does to calm me down, its not often it is this way round usually joe is the one protecting me but im glad its this way round for a change. so i can show joseph how much i love him and i will always protect him.
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dianne had pulled me into a hug and kissed my head i instantly felt calm and my fears disappear. 'do you want to tell me what happened, maybe I can help'. I looked up at Dianne and we both sat up our hands and legs were still entwined together, it sounds so stupid though dot. 'hey nothing is stupid, tell me'.
i had a dream someone came in and took you, I couldn't stop them an... and I lost you
'aww joseph, look at me I promise you that's not going to happen' I know I just feel like I need to protect you and im not doing enough to an...
before I could finish my sentence Dianne pressed her lips on mine 'joseph you always make me feel protected, just having you by my side makes me feel so loved and safe please don't feel like you don't do enough ok, I love you'. I love you too.
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the next morning I woke up after joe for a change he was sat massaging my head and tickling my back, my head was squished into his neck and my arms wrapped tight around him. morning I said into his neck 'morning' I pulled away and pushed my lips onto his how you feeling now joseph.
'im okay now thanks to you, thank you for staying up with me last night'
that's ok, I know you would do the same for me. 'of course'.
