eBae → l.h

1.1

Ellie

"Luke I should go home now, my mom might murder me.." I said while glancing at the clock which said 12:11PM. "But your mom doesn't even give you respect, stay with me forever." He pouted, blinking more than he should've. 

"Luke, ugh, I know, but I told you many times, I barely know you, and I can't agree to stay with you just like that!" I was getting frustrated with him again. He was taking things way too quickly. "So the kisses, cuddles, talks and laughs meant nothing?" He asked with no emotion. 

"Luke of course it meant something! And this is taking things way too fast! I really don't understand how you expect me to trust you and be sure of you all of a sudden.." I groaned, pulling on my hair, getting up and running upstairs, to his room. I found my clothes scattered everywhere, I quickly got dressed and put my hair in a messy bun before running back downstairs. 

He was staring at the ceiling, no emotion, just staring. I licked my lips, "Uh.. Luke, bye." He smiled, nodding. "Bye Elsie." 

I raised an eyebrow, "Why are you calling me that?" I asked. "It's your name." He answered as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, which it was.. "But-" 

"Ellie it's your fucking name. Get lost.." He sighed, I groaned really loud, "Luke why are you doing this? Making a little thing a huge argument!" 

He got up, looking at me straight in the eyes, "It makes me mad that you think all those moments literally meant nothing." I shook my head, "It meant more than anything, Luke. I just have to do some other things, but it doesn't stop me from thinking about you every two seconds, getting butterflies in my stomach just by the thought of you, or anything. I really, really like you. But I have other things I need to take care of." 

He ran his finger through his hair, "Yeah, I guess I'll see you.. Tomorrow?" He flashed a smile with a noticeable blush. "Or even today." I shrugged, grinning. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me, softly pressing my lips to his, tilting my head a little. 

After a while I pulled away, "Bye Luke." He waved at me, "Bye Ellie." 

- 

I sighed, debating on whether to go back to Luke's place or just get in and get it over with. I decided to get in. I turned the knob slowly and pushed the door open, but since my luck was in the drain, the door made a really, really loud squeaky sound and my mom yelled something right then. 

She came stomping down the stairs with her phone in her hand, looking at me with those scary, empty-hearted eyes. "Why didn't you come earlier?" She said calmly. "I was helping.. Um, Luke.. Lukina, yeah, Lukina get some things before he- she, she, I mean she, left." 

My mom crossed her arms, "That makes no sense, helping a friend get ready for a flight which was supposed to leave three hours ago?" 

Shit. Did I say that yesterday? Maybe I texted her, who am I kidding? I don't even know what I ate for dinner last night, how the hell am I supposed to remember if I said anything like that?

I gulped, "Well, I was helping with other things at Abby's house too.." Abby was my older cousin who despised me for no particular reason. "Can I ask her?" My mom smirked. 

"Um, she said she'd deny it no matter what, since.. You know, she hates me." I fake-smiled. 

My mom sighed, "Just wait till your dad gets here." 

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6:30 PM

I was sitting in the corner of my room, crying my eyes out like a three year old. I felt more than worthless, invaluable and stupid. My parents didn't physically abuse me, but they sure as hell mentally abused the living fuck out of me. 

I didn't think much when my mom said, "Just wait till your dad gets here." But I should have. He said how I was a total failure, stupid and every other thing to make a person feel like shit. My parents are extremely low, and I don't know what I did to deserve such a life, really. 

My phone buzzed, making me cringe, I checked the ID, it was Luke, I fiddled around with my fingers, should I answer it? I'll sound like a depressed teenager again. Which I am, I guess. 

I pressed 'answer', then cleared my throat. "Hey.." I forced a smile even though he couldn't see me. "Hey Ellie, is everything fine?" 

"Yup, just okay." But my voice was cracking way too much and my tears were uncontrollable. "Sorry.." I sniffed, wiping my eyes. "Ellie? What happened?" Concern was filling his voice. "Luke.." I sighed, "I'm used to it, don't worry." 

"Ellie tell me what happened!" He said in an angry, yet very concerned voice. I took a deep breath, "Apparently I'm stupid, invaluable, worthless, and all that, plus my mother should've put me up for adoption or got an abortion.." 

Luke literally yelped, "Who the fuck said that?" 

"My dad.." 

And once again.... The line went dead. 

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so i decided to go back to the 'updates on saturdays' thing bc it's easier and i don't exactly wanna confuse people. so yeah, i'll update next saturday. ily all, thank you for the support. <3

-Mariana x