𝕴 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 ~ Regulus black x reader

24

I was still on the roof when I woke up extremely sore. I opened my eyes to find a pitch-black owl staring me down inches from my face. I yelped and jumped up. I was breathing heavily my hands on my knees as I attempted to regain my sanity. once I had and turned to the bird,

"what do you want"it hopped towards me and dropped a letter signed in silver lettering,

𝚁.𝙰.𝙱.

I took a sharp inhale and grabbed it. the owl stayed clearly instructed to take something back. I opened it with shaky hands and pulled out the letter. 

𝑀𝓎 𝒹𝑒𝒶𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉, 𝒴/𝓃 

𝐼 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝒷𝑒𝑔𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝑜 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝒸𝓇𝒾𝒷𝑒 𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝐼 𝓂𝑒𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 𝓊𝓅, 𝓂𝓎 𝓂𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝓈 𝒹𝑒𝒶𝒹. 𝐼'𝓂 𝒶𝓈𝓈𝓊𝓂𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊'𝓋𝑒 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒶𝓂. 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓅𝓊𝓈𝒽𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝑒 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝑜𝓃 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒹𝑒𝒶𝓉𝒽𝒷𝑒𝒹, 𝓉𝓇𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝓂𝑒 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝓃𝑜 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝑜𝒻 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝒹𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈. 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉'𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝓎 𝐼 𝓌𝓇𝑜𝓉𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓁𝑒𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇, 𝐼 𝓌𝓇𝑜𝓉𝑒 𝒾𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒶𝓈𝓀 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝑜𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒶 𝓈𝑒𝒸𝑜𝓃𝒹 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒. 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓉 𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝑒𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓁𝓎, 𝓌𝒾𝓅𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓈𝓁𝒶𝓉𝑒, 𝐼'𝓂 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝑔𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝓊𝓅 𝒶𝓃𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓎𝑜𝓊. 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒'𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶 𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝑔𝑜𝑒𝓈 𝒷𝓎 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝑜𝓃'𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀 𝑜𝒻 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊. 𝓈𝑜 𝓅𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓈𝑒, 𝒶𝓉 𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝓉. 

𝓅.𝓈. 𝐼 𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓉𝑜𝑜.

my eyes welled with tears. I was right, he would never willing do that. I choked back a sob and smiled. I mean did I still love him, fuck, of course, I still loved him. He was my Regulus, my stars, my moon and sun, everything that brightened my life. no matter how much I denied it, I needed him too. it may piss off my family but, if he was willing to risk his life then so was I. I quickly wiped the tears from my face and smiled widely. 

I was wrong before. it wasn't having him that made me worse, it was the fear of being without him. 

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I scribbled furiously on a piece of parchment, I was smiling widely, something I hadn't done in forever. I finished and examined my handiwork. 

𝑅𝑒𝑔𝓊𝓁𝓊𝓈,

𝐼'𝓁𝓁 𝒶𝒹𝓂𝒾𝓉. 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓃'𝓉 𝒷𝑒𝑒𝓃 𝓌𝑒𝓁𝓁 𝑒𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒾𝓃 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒶𝒷𝓈𝑒𝓃𝒸𝑒. 𝒶𝓈 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝒶𝓈 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓉𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝒶𝒹𝓂𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓉, 𝐼 𝓃𝑒𝑒𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓉𝑜𝑜. 𝐼'𝓂 𝒽𝑜𝓅𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓎𝑜𝓊'𝓁𝓁 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝒹𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔. 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑒𝓍𝓉𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓁𝓎 𝓇𝒾𝓈𝓀𝓎. 𝐼 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓉𝑜 𝒿𝑜𝒾𝓃 𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒. 𝒶𝓈 𝒶 𝓈𝓅𝓎. 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌, 𝒾𝓉'𝓈 𝓇𝒾𝓈𝓀𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒹𝒶𝓃𝑔𝑒𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓈 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝐼 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝓀 𝓌𝑒 𝒸𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝓅𝓊𝓁𝓁 𝒾𝓉 𝑜𝒻𝒻. 𝓌𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒻𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒, 𝐼 𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊. 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓈𝒾𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓁𝑒𝒻𝓉, 𝐼 𝓌𝒾𝓈𝒽 𝐼 𝒸𝑜𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝓈𝑒𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊. 𝐼'𝓂 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜 𝑔𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒶 𝓉𝓇𝓎, 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓎𝑜𝓊.

𝐼 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓉𝑜𝑜.

𝒴/𝓃

I smiled rereading the letter. I really did want to give him a second chance, I trusted him. surprisingly. I just hoped he would take my offer and join our side. 

I called the black owl to my arm as I placed it in a black letter, I was deciding on what seal to use when I saw it. the large black handle of my potter seal. I took a deep breath and grabbed the handle. I turned my chair on its wheels, facing a wall of multicoloured waxes. I stood and looked along the wall all the way to the end to a bottle labelled, boldly 'Potter' I grasped it and quickly began to melt it. steadily pouring it onto the center of the envelope and pressed the seal down. waiting till it cooled to pull it off, I smiled a little, remembering the many letters I sent with this same seal. I was still reminiscing when Sirius casually walked in sipping a beer. he hopped up onto the desk.

"Whatcha doin" I jumped dropping the letter,

"merlin! don't fucking sneak up on my like that!" I went to pick up the letter but the grinning Sirius had snatched it before I had the chance, he grinned smugly and looked at it. his face fell when he read to whom it was addressed. I kept my eyes fixed on the ground. 

"oh Y/n. please tell me you didn't" I spoke quietly,

"I did. and I don't regret it pads" I looked up at him tears brimming in my eyes "I do love him, and no matter how many bad things he does or says, I need him in my life. I don't want a life without him." I but my lip and the taste of lipstick filled my mouth as I tried to keep from crying. he enveloped me in a hug, the distinct scent of leather, cigarettes and alcohol enveloped me. I mumbled into him as I hugged back weakly,

"he didn't want to do it, Siri, Walburga made him" he froze in shock

"r-really" I nodded into his chest, he hugged me tightly and laughed a little.

~~~~ three weeks later ~~~~

everyone was assembled inside my house. and when I say everyone I mean everyone. the Longbottom, the potters, Sirius, Remus, Dumbledore. e v e r y o n e. I was on the verge of an anxiety attack as I sipped the old fashioned in my hand. I had to look somewhat normal not like my usual mess. there was a new member coming to join us today, none of us knew who. I crossed my legs and bounced my propped leg. 

everyone silenced around me and I stared into the bottom of my glass, not giving a care who it was. the room broke out into whispers. I finally looked up and froze. my glass fell to the floor and shattered as I looked up to see Regulus, perfect black hair, suit and all. I stood quickly, a look of shock etched onto my face as he gave me a small awkward wave and smile across the room. I felt everyone's heads turn to stare at me but I didn't care who was looking. the man I loved was in front of me. I ran as fast as I could through the glass and alcohol on the floor towards him. I jumped on him and wrapped my arms around his neck, laughing and crying all at once. he hugged my waist and buried his head in my shoulder.

 I pulled back and grabbed him by the collar roughly. I pulled him towards me. His lips met mine and it was just as I remembered, my hands tangled themselves naturally in his hair as if knowing what to do without me knowing what I was even thinking. his arms were wrapped around my waist, I pulled away and rested my forehead on his, laughing and crying. I looked into his amazing piercing blue-grey eyes, that softness reserved only for when he looked at me. I spoke without thinking,

"I love you" he smiled brightly, oh that smile. he was so beautiful and he was mine. he looked at me with utter adoration and my knees went weak as he spoke,

"I love you too Y/n" his arms remained around my waist as I turned around and was met face to face with a furious looking James. 

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wow. okay. yeah. I really hope you guys liked this I've been wanting to write this chapter for a long time.