As Close As Strangers

Six

"Alright, we've got one last song for you guys and it's goes a little like this." Luke said as I stayed playing the guitar.

Amnesia. Luke started singing and that's when I started fucking up.

"Get it together." Calum whispered.

I was looking out into the crowd for her, but tonight I couldn't find her. She was lost in the thousands of faces. I couldn't do this.

"If today I woke up with you right beside me, like all of this was just some twisted dream. I'd hold you closer than I ever did before and you'd never slip away and you'd never hear me say-"

Hold it together. Just hold it together please.

"Cause I'm really not fine at all." We all sang together.

I walked off stage before we said goodnight. Right past everyone and everything. Into my car and away from everything. Maybe the radio would help.

"I wish that I could wake up with amnesia."

"Fucking shit!" I yelled.

I pounded on the steering wheel. I was in a place I didn't know in a car I could barely drive. I know how mad they will all be later but I just didn't care. Maybe I could just drive away from all of my problems. Or maybe I couldn't. I looked down to see my phone ringing.

"Hello?" I said.

"Where the hell are you?" Calum yelled.

"I can't do it." I said.

"Can't do what? Michael, wait okay you're on speaker. Where are you?" He asked again.

"I just can't do this anymore." I sighed.

"Do what Michael, do what?!" Ashton yelled.

"I-I don't know."

"Michael, where are you?" Luke asked.

"I don't know." I said again.

"Okay. Alright I'm coming to get you. What are you near?" He asked.

"Gas station."

"Okay, just stay where you are." He said and then he hung up.

Why was I acting like this? Numb. I just felt numb. I know why I'm acting like this. Ella. I think I have to break up with Ella.