Depressed

Lonely

I know what it feels like to be around so many people but still feel alone. It's the feeling you get when you wanna end your life and you're too scared to because you think of the people who care for you and how much people would kill for your life. People say, "Oh i'm so alone right now." Because they aren't with their friends or around the people they want to be around, but that's not what the sad meaning of Alone means. It's when you are with people but you ain't in the right headspace to really do or say anything but they don't try and talk to you even though they see you sitting there not doing or saying anything and just looking Dead inside. That's what made some people take their own lives because they were alone, they had no one to take care of them the way some other people do and it's sad how much people take their own lifes from being alone! People think they understand what it's like but no they don't. When people find out someone they used to know died they go straight to posting it on social media and say, "She/He was a real one known Him/Her for ever she/he was my ride or die! Will forever be missed!" and here's the thing, If they had put away social media that person would still be breathing! Because if that person didn't go straight to the phone then they would have felt loved and cared but they didn't so they harmed themselves! Until they no longer wanted to walk on earth because there is no one to take care of them! So they have no Love nor support so for they think they have no purpose or no worth... When they really could have become a doctor and saved lifes and not taken lifes! So If you have a friend you feel alone around you need some new friends because they aren't worth not living if they don't care and all they care about is Phones, clout and Followers and you just want a conversation but they clearly can't see that. Just know you are worth living for! And don't need anyone holding you back and putting you down! Just Know you mean so much more than you think you do! Those people that are meant to be your friends should be there 24/7! And should support you and not put you down because they are just dead weight and they aren't going to get better if they are just glued to their phone! So leave them and you will come out of that shell they kept you in and be the person you are meant to be! Don't change for anyone Ever! No matter what they can do for you Know that you can do more for yourself! And they aren't worth it if they want you to change! At some point in life they will feel the way you did when you were with them! And they will look up to you watching you being successful! And they can't do anything about it apart from regret what they Did to you! 

If you are going thru something I am here for you!